hair ties, and a few toiletries in my helmet bag just for instances like this, but I cleaned my bag the flight before last and never got around to resupplying it.
But what a dumb thing to be worrying about in light of what just happened.
âCome on,â Brian says. âWeâll show you to the wardroom.â
I shove my helmet and gloves in my bag and follow the group into the hangar. We maneuver around two tightly packed H-60 Seahawk helicopters, turning sideways to squeeze between the bulkhead and an auxiliary power unit crammed in the corner. This is a far smaller space than our hangar on the Kansas City. I vow right then that when I return to our ship, I will never complain of claustrophobia again.
As we walk, I think about the fact that weâre stuck on this ship and are going to need a place to stay. For the guys, it wonât be a problem. For me? Different story. In an anomaly that has yet to be explained, the Lake Champlain has deployed without any women. Granted, women make up only roughly 15 percent of a carrier strike group, but the Lake Champlain has deployed with them in the past, so Iâm not sure why it would be any different this time.
Iâm no stranger to being in the minority, though. Iâve been assigned to short deployments as the only woman in the detachment, or perhaps as one of only two. But I havenât minded. I put my head down and do my job with two goals. Be competent and blend inâbe the small dot.
Unfortunately, finding berthing for me in this instance is going to be a big dot thing. Itâs not like they have guest rooms. If Zack was here in my place, they would throw down a cot in one of the pilotsâ staterooms and heâd be set. Not so with me. Theyâre going to have to jump through hoops to accommodate me. Someone is going to have to move out of his room. Shoot. I hate this. Itâs such a glaring you-are-not-part-of-the-fraternity moment. Special treatment for the female. The guys are going to groan. Shoot. Shoot. Shoot.
We enter the Lake Champlain âs wardroom, a tight, confined space, with one long, rectangular table running down the middle. The mess cranksâwhat the navy calls its cooksâare preparing for dinner and these guys barely have enough room to squeeze behind the chairs. Theyâre also having difficulty keeping their feet, leaning and stumbling due to the shipâs unpredictable movementsâan always delicate balancing act.
âWhy donât you have a seat here,â Brian says. âIâll grab some coffee.â
I take a seat at the far end of the table, the other pilots dropping into chairs around me. But curiously, Eric stands apart, moving to the other side of the room. Brian returns, coffeepot in hand, followed by one of the mess cranks, Seaman Ogilvy, who holds several mugs.
âSo, welcome aboard the Lake Champlain, â Brian says with a grin.
Seaman Ogilvy takes over, pouring the coffeeâonly halfway, so it doesnât slosh outâand serving. I donât think a cup has ever tasted so good.
âWeâve worked it out so that youâll take my room and Iâll move in with these guys,â Brian says. âNick will stay with the XO,â he adds, referring to the executive officer, who is second in command of the ship.
âIâm sorry about this,â I say. âI donât want to kick you out of your room.â
âHey, itâs not a problem. This is a small ship and when we have guests, we have to move to accommodate. Itâs not just you.â
I smile in thanks. It was probably just an offhand comment, rendered without much thought, but Brian has no idea how much what he just said means to me.
The other pilots begin to pepper me with questions about the emergency, and while Iâm answering them on the one hand, a separate part of my brain is hyperaware of the man leaning against the opposite bulkhead. Perhaps because heâs looking
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