really did appreciate a pilot showing interest in what she did; so many of them didnât. The mechanic, male or female, blended into the background for most pilots.
Mickey and Gordon might not even have known she existed if sheâd been a guy; though they were both such hounds that sheâd have to be seriously âplain Janeâ not to have them notice her being a woman. Bruce was no better. Vanessa was still so overwhelmed at being hired by MHAâto fill the MD500 that Vern had vacated when moving to the Firehawkâthat a mechanic was still wholly invisible to her, male or female.
Mark Henderson treated everyone with equal respect, so equal that Denise felt invisible to him too. Emily and Jeannie certainly knew who took care of their birds, and sheâd count both as friends, as much as she ever had friends.
But Vern saw her.
Really saw her, which was both uncomfortable and interesting. And both emotional responses were for the same reason: they evoked the question of âWhy?â
She studied him without really looking at him as he held the last panel in place for her to screw back down. If she had an emergency and needed help, Vern was probably the one sheâd call without thinking about how she might be imposing. That too was a revelation she wasnât expecting.
Everyoneâs life was a checklist. Like the inspection list on her Firehawk repair report, like her dadâs tally of what chores were owed or skipped when she was a kid. Everything had been a balance sheet with Jasper. It was how life worked. Though with him, sheâd always been on the losing side for reasons she still didnât understand. Some failure in her attempts to be a woman when she was actually just a mechanic.
Except Vern didnât work that way. He simply gave. Sheâd witnessed it a hundred times. Someone was moving and Vern was the first to volunteer to haul boxes. Someone was down sick? Vern would fill in no matter how nasty or dull the chore.
Even yesterdayâs flight. Heâd flown at the back of the returning Firehawksâ formation. Sheâd bet it wasnât because he was the newest. It was because he hadnât thought it was of any importance where he flew. Emily would always take the lead, part of being an ex-Army major, and Jeannie would always take Emilyâs wing position. Vern was fine with bringing up the rear.
A guy with no ego on the line, which ranked most unusual in her experience. Unusual? Totally unheard of.
She focused on anchoring the last of the screws to finish her inspection on bullet number thirty-four as Betsyâs bell announced breakfast. Its peal heralded the sunrise and flushed the early-bird crows and jays abruptly into the morning sky.
Vernâs hands remained steady and patient while she finished her work, even though they stood close enough that she could hear his stomach grumble when the vagaries of the morning air wafted the smells of bacon and coffee across the field.
âCoffee,â he moaned quietly like a pitiful child, but he kept the piece of bodywork in place as she drove the last screws home, then double-checked that she hadnât missed any.
She finished, signed the bottom of the log on her tablet, then made her dadâs hand sign for âokay to flyâ as she did at the end of every repair.
âWhat was that?â
âWhat was what?â No one had ever noticed or asked about that. Vern was noticing everything about her. Jasper sure hadnât. By the end of their relationship, sheâd been near enough invisible. Might have been pretty invisible at the start, now that she thought about it. It was as if even being around Vern was slowly shining a flashlight on quite how pitiful her relationship with Jasper had been. âItâs a hand sign my dad made up.â
âDo it again.â
She wanted to refuse. It was their private sign, only her and Dad, but she did it again.
âSlower.â
This