can take a bus. The twins insist on sitting upstairs to watch the parade of small shops interrupted by derelict properties. Wreaths on a lamppost enshrine a teenage car thief before we cross a bridge into the docks. I won’t let the flowers remind me of my aunt, whose house is the best part of a mile away. The heads I see ducking behind the reflection in the window of the back seats belong to children. However little good they’re up to, I ignore them, and they remain entirely hidden as we make for the stairs at our stop.
The pedestrian precinct appears to lead to a cathedral on the far side of the foreshortened river. The street enclosed by shops is crowded, largely with young girls pushing their siblings in buggies, if the toddlers aren’t their offspring. The twins bypass discount stores on the way to a shopping mall, where the tiled floor slopes up to a food court flanked by clothes shops. Twin marts called Boyz and Girlz face each other across tables occupied by pensioners eking out cups of tea and families demolishing the contents of polystyrene cartons. “I’ll be in there,” Geraldine declares and runs across to Girlz.
“Wait and we’ll come—” I might as well not have commenced, since as I turn to Gerald he dodges into Boyz. “Stay in the shops. Call me when you need me,” I shout so loud that a little girl at a table renders her mouth clownish with a misaimed cream cake. Geraldine doesn’t falter, and I’m not sure if she heard. As she vanishes into the shop beyond the diners I hurry after her brother.
Boyz is full of parents indulging or haranguing their children. When I can’t immediately locate Gerald in the noisy aisles I feel convicted of negligence. He’s at the rear of the shop, removing fat shoes from boxy alcoves on the wall. “Don’t go out whatever you do. I’m just going to see your sister doesn’t either,” I tell him.
I can’t see her in the other shop. I’m sidling between the tables when I grasp that I could have had Gerald phone for me to speak to her. It’s just as far to go back now, and so I find my way through an untidy maze of abandoned chairs to Girlz. Any number of those, correctly spelled, are jangling racks of hangers and my nerves while selecting clothes to dispute with their parents, but none of them is Geraldine. I flurry up and down the aisles, back and forth to another catacomb of footwear, but she’s nowhere to be seen.
“Geraldine,” I plead in the faded voice my exertions have left me. Perhaps it’s best that I can’t raise it, since she must be in another shop. I didn’t actually see her entering this one. As I dash outside I’m seized by a panic that tastes like all the food in the court turned stale. I need to borrow Gerald’s mobile, but the thought makes me wonder if the twins could be using their phones to play a game at my expense—to coordinate how they’ll keep hiding from me. I stare about in a desperate attempt to locate Geraldine, and catch sight of the top of her head in the clothes store next to Girlz.
“Just you stay there,” I pant as I flounder through the entrance. It’s clear that she’s playing a trick, because it’s a shop for adults; indeed, all the dresses that flap on racks in the breeze of my haste seem designed for the older woman. She’s crouching behind a waist-high cabinet close to the wall. The cabinet quivers a little at my approach, and she stirs as if she’s preparing to bolt for some other cover. “That’s enough, Geraldine,” I say and make, I hope, not too ungentle a grab. My foot catches on an edge of carpet, however, and I sprawl across the cabinet. Before I can regain any balance my fingers lodge in the dusty reddish hair.
Is it a wig on a dummy head? It comes away in my hand, but it isn’t all that does. I manage not to distinguish any features of the tattered whitish item that dangles from it, clinging to my fingers until I hurl the tangled mass at the wall. I’m struggling to back away