home. Like as not heâll be off at sea, anyway, and sheâll be all alone. Oh, Iâm that worried I canât think straight.â
âFliss is a sailorâs wife now,â said Fox gently. âHer duty is with the Commander. Thereâs nowt nor summat any of us can do about that, maid. Just be thankful thereâs so much more medical knowhow these days.â
âSheâs frightened,â said Ellen miserably, sitting down suddenly. âI can see it, for all her bright chatter. She doesnât deceive me.â
Fox stared at her, shocked by this revelation. He had been quite taken in by Flissâs cheerfulness but now, as he looked at the uncharacteristic slump of Ellenâs shoulders, he began to feel infected by her anxiety.
âIt reminds of me when they first arrived from Kenya,â said Ellen. âRemember? She was always pushing down her own grief because of Mole being struck dumb by the shock. I can see her now at this very table, panic-stricken because she thought heâd never talk again and him swallowing and swallowing, trying to get the words out. Sheâd never let him see it, though. Always bright and cheerful, trying to distract him, hiding her fear. Sheâs doing it again now but she doesnât fool me .â
Fox could think of nothing to say. He felt inadequate and helpless, guessing that anything he suggested would be rejected by Ellen in her present frame of mind. He gave a sigh of relief as Caroline and Perks came in to the kitchen together.
âIt never ceases to amaze me how quickly the weather can change,â said Caroline, shutting the door behind her as Perks headed for her basket. âSummer one day, autumn the next . . .â
She paused, sensing the atmosphere, her glance passing between the two of them. Fox shook his head slightly, jerking it towards Ellen, pulling down the corners of his mouth warningly. Caroline raised her eyebrows questioningly and put her hand lightly on Ellenâs shoulder as she passed.
âI need a cup of tea,â she said. âItâs not that itâs cold exactly, but thereâs a kind of dankness. Thank goodness for a nice warm kitchen. Cuppa, Ellen? I see Fox has got one already.â
âI think I will,â said Ellen, not moving. âIâve got the hump today and thatâs all there is to it.â
âPoor old Ellen.â Caroline lifted the big brown teapot from the Aga and put it on the table. âAny particular reason or is it Moleâs old âblack dogâ kind of depression?â
âItâs that Fliss,â wailed Ellen, plaiting her fingers together and wringing her hands. âSheâs not happy, Caroline. No two ways about it.â
âNo,â said Caroline after a moment. âNo, I realise that. Here.â She poured Ellenâs tea and pushed the cup towards her. âIâve been thinking about it, too. Sheâs trying to be brave about it but thereâs a lot on her mind. The baby, going to Hong Kong, being away from us all for two years. The trouble is thereâs nothing to be done about it. If she stays behind to have the baby at home and then waits for it to be old enough to travel, half of Milesâs time will be over before she gets out there.â
âIn my young days,â said Ellen grimly, unimpressed by this argument, âyoung navy wives didnât go gadding round the world with their husbands. They stayed at home sensibly, bringing up their children. I recall fathers not seeing children till they were two years old and upwards.â
âNo aeroplanes in those days,â put in Fox. âThe sea voyage out to the China station and suchlike was enough to put off most young wives.â
âBut itâs not new,â said Caroline gently. âThink of the British out in India. And surely you wouldnât want Miles not to see his child until it was two years old,
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