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let the
    water beat all around me and I cry for
    what feels like an hour. The water is ice
    cold by the time I hear Aiden open the
    door.
    “Ivy, I want to help you. I just
    don’t know what to do.” He continues in
    with a towel. He keeps his head bowed
    and never looks into the shower. God,
    why can't this be Taron. Why can't
    Taron be here helping me? I should
    have known he would be gone before
    morning without a single word.
    Last night started so perfect. I try
    to think about the good side of Taron and
    remember how he felt when he wrapped
    me in his arms. I would do anything
    right now for his touch.
    I barely have the energy to rise
    from my crouching position. Aiden
    hands the towel to me and helps me out
    once I’m wrapped up. I’m very unsteady
    and I have to rely on him completely to
    get me to the bed. He leaves me on the
    edge with the t-shirt and shorts. He
    leaves the room and closes the door to
    give me privacy. I feel so numb.
    I stand to pull on my shorts and
    catch a glimpse of myself in the mirror.
    My
    flesh is red and blotchy, but
    somehow my face looks pale. I rotate
    each wrist and begin to realize how
    much pain he caused me.
    “Ivy. Are you done?” Aiden
    opens the door and I look at his face
    through the reflection in the mirror. He
    looks at me with hurt, anger, disgust, but
    the worst is pity.
    “Don't look at me. Leave me
    alone.” I bow my head and try to cover
    myself.
    “I'm not leaving you. Now get
    your clothes on.” He turns his back to
    me.
    I pull on his t-shirt and shorts.
    Everything is extremely baggy and I feel
    slouchy. Can I possibly have any more
    emotions?
    “Ok. I'm done.” I stand there until
    he reaches me and guides me to the bed.
    H e pulls back his comforter and sheet
    and then urges me to climb in. He tucks
    the covers over me and lies down on the
    floor right beside me.
    “What are you doing?”
    “I'm trying to be here for you and
    not cross any lines.” He sits up on the
    floor and faces me. My face is on the
    pillow at the same level of his.
    “Thank you.” Tears begin to slip
    out again. I don’t have the energy to sob
    anymore, but it doesn’t take much to let
    the tear drops fall.
    “I wish you would let me call
    Eaven.”
    “No. I don’t want to talk about it.
    Just let me be.”
    “I will be here for you the entire
    night. Just let me know if you need me.
    Pretend that I am not here.”
    I roll over to face the opposite
    direction and the tears flow even
    harder. I start to have flash backs of
    Dylan forcing himself on me. This
    causes me to breathe heavy and I begin
    to hyperventilate. I feel like everything
    is closing in on me. I quickly sit up in
    the bed and try to catch my breath.
    Aiden moves in behind me and slowly
    grabs my shoulders in a hug. I cringe
    when he surrounds me. I struggle for
    him to release me when he says, “Shhh
    Ivy. I won't let him near you, I
    promise.”
    I close my eyes and focus on
    breathing.
    “You are safe. I will make sure of
    it.” I want to feel safe in his arms. I
    know deep down that I am, but my heart
    is craving another set of arms to shield
    me. He guides me to lie back in the bed
    and I finally succumb to the exhaustion
    of this night.

    I wake up alone in the bed and I
    still feel an overwhelming numbness. I
    don’t think I have any tears left to cry
    after last night. I move to get out of bed
    and find Aiden on the floor by my side.
    This guy is so great. How come I can’t
    force myself to fall for someone like
    him?
    You can’t help who you fall for.
    All you can do is try to recover from the
    crash of the fall if they aren’t there to
    catch you. I need to talk to Eaven this
    morning. I don’t want her going to our
    apartment and worrying about me. I
    reach for my phone and see a missed call
    from her. I quickly send her a text.

    Ivy: I’m at Aiden’s. Don’t go to the
    apartment. Where are you?
    Eaven: At Talon’s. What’s wrong?
    Ivy: I’ll be there to talk to you