not going to win this fight, and I knew it.
âLook, Lex, no oneâs expecting you to go out there and hit a double black diamond your first day back,â Dad told me as he sat down in the chair across from me, pushing the steaming mug into my hands. âBut if you still want to chase this dream, you have to get right back on that horse. Thatâs what professional athletes do. They heal and move on. This is a new year. Weâre starting fresh, and weâre not going to let some little, old, completely healed injury get in our way, now are we?â
Donât let him push you . Momâs words echoed in my head.
I stared down at my hot chocolate, no longer feeling like drinking it. I used to love how Dad would always say âweâ when it came to my snowboarding career. Like the two of us were a team. That we were in this togetherâwhatever might come our way. But now the implication only irritated me. We didnât crash into a tree. We didnât break our leg in two places. We didnât suffer through months of painful physical therapy to get back to where we once were.
Youâve got nothing to prove to anyone.
âLook, honey, Iâm not trying to downplay your accident,â he assured me. âIt was a horrible thing, and I thank my lucky stars every day you came out of it in one piece. After all, I know firsthand what itâs like to deal with a serious injury on the slopes.â
I stifled a groan, knowing exactly what was coming next. That legendary story about how he qualified for the Winter X Games while suffering from a broken collarbone.
âDid I ever tell you about the time I qualified for the Winter X Games with a broken collarbone?â
My dad was nothing if not predictable.
I forced myself to slug down a mouthful of hot chocolate as he droned on, even though it tasted like mud. It was a story heâd told me a thousand times before. About him colliding with a fellow rider and ending up in the hospital. About evading the hospital staff and climbing out of a second-story window at first lightâjust so he could make it in time for the qualifying rounds of the event. About how, even in total agony, he managed to score his spot on the team.
A professional athlete, he would finish, never let an injury rob them of their dreams.
I wanted to mention that perhaps Swiss gold medalist Tanja Frieden might have disagreed, having had to retire from the sport in a wheelchair after tearing two Achilles tendons. But I knew Dad would just list ten other riders who had pushed through broken ribs, busted knees, and crippling concussions. Snowboard cross was the most dangerous sport in the Olympic Games, and I had always known it. But it was one thing to know you could get hurt. Quite another to actually feel the pain.
Youâre special, no matter what.
Dad rubbed my head, messing up my hair, his eyes shining with affection. âI know itâs scary,â he told me. âBut weâre going to get through this. Iâll be by your side the entire way. Weâre going to have a terrific year. And by the end of this month, I guarantee youâre going to be saying âWhat accident?â as we start winning races and racking up the points toward our nomination for Team USA.â
I sighed. It was what Iâd always wanted. The only thing Iâd ever wanted. And Dad had done everything in his power to get me to this point. The hot chocolate churned in my stomach as I stole a glance at his hopeful face, begging me to agree with him. To say Iâd keep going no matter whatâso his sacrifices would not be in vain. Dad had given up everything to help me chase my Olympic dream. His job, his bank account, even his weekendsâspent giving me extra one-on-one training instead of relaxing in front of the TV and watching football like other dads. And heâd never once complained about any of it.
So how could I give up now? How could I let him down?