Read Going Deep for Free Online

through him. “Yeah. But—”
    “No buts. You’re
denying your true nature. Go home. Look at some of the books I gave you this
afternoon. We’re on the road for the next week. We’ll talk then.”
    Jason nodded and
turned to walk to his own car parked a few spaces away. The vintage Mustang
wasn’t fancy, but it suited him better than a new car fresh off the showroom
floor. No one would ever mistake it for a tame ride.
    “I’ve been
there, buddy. Where you are right now,” Todd called.
    He stopped at
the sound of his friend’s voice but didn’t turn.
    “I know exactly
how you feel,” he said, truth ringing in his words. “Trust me. You’ll be
happier once you accept who you are.”
    A car door shut.
An engine roared. Jason turned, catching the glow of taillights on his friend’s
Mercedes until they disappeared.
    Accept who I
am.
    Fuck.
    He knew who he
was. It was what he was that he found hard to accept. Okay, so sharing a
woman with his twin brother wasn’t exactly prudish sexual behavior, but it was
a hell of a lot different than being a Dom.
    He unlocked his
car and sank into the driver’s seat. He lifted his warm-up jacket and eyed the
stack of books hidden beneath it on the passenger seat. His cock twitched just
reading the titles.   BDSM Protocol. The Power Exchange Dynamic. The Dummies
Guide to Domination and Submission.
    Maybe Todd had
it right. Maybe this was the real Jason Holder. One thing was for certain, he
couldn’t get the images from the night before out of his mind. Most of the
things he’d seen, and everything he’d done excited him.
    He pulled from
the parking lot into the late evening traffic. The closer he got to home, the
more certain he became. Denying his sexual needs wouldn’t cut it, especially
now that he knew he could fulfill those needs in a safe, private way.
    The next
morning, he tossed two of the books into his suitcase. He would have plenty of
time on the road to read. He wasn’t sure he was ready to share this part of his
life with his brother, but since they would be roommates, he didn’t see any way
to hide his reading material from him. He wasn’t looking forward to that
conversation, but it had to come sometime. No more of that mind reading, twins always
know stuff shit. He and Jeff were close, but last year that kind of thinking
had almost cost his brother the love of his life. So to avoid future problems
they’d vowed to actually voice their thoughts instead of relying on the proven
unreliable DNA network.
     
    * * *
     
    “I’m not
surprised,” Jeff said.
    Jason stared at
his brother who sat on the other bed in the hotel room they shared, thumbing
through a book that outlined a Dom’s responsibilities to his or her sub. “What?”
    “I said I’m not
surprised. You’ve always wanted your way. In everything, not just sex. Though I
can remember a time or two when you insisted on getting your way with Megan.
Sometimes I went along if it suited me, too, and if she was okay with it. But
there were other times….”
    He thought about
the year and a half they’d spent in a three-way relationship. His brother had a
point. He had tried to control many of their encounters. “I didn’t see it then,
but I can see it now. Our relationship wasn’t ever going to work. She just
isn’t the kind to follow orders.”
    “That’s true,”
Jeff allowed, still thumbing through the book, pausing here and there when a photo
caught his eye. “Though there’s some stuff in here I wouldn’t mind trying with her.
After the baby comes.”
    “Here, give me
that!” Jason grabbed the book.
    “Hey! I wasn’t
through.”
    “Yes, you are. I’m
not going to have your wife blaming me for putting ideas in your head.”
    “It’s not like
she’s never been tied up. She likes that kind of stuff.”
    “I remember, but
she always knew she could get loose with a flick of her wrists. This is
different.” He shifted to hide his instant erection from his brother.
    “If I used