thatâs not what I had.â
âYou wanted to have an underground experience?â I asked her.
âI meant undergrad experience because, you know, Mom pledged grad chapter. Truthfully, if I had to do it over again, I wish I wouldâve pledged as a grad because pledging was a lot of work, but right now the Betas have their heads on straight, and they plan to do it right for your line. They want only a few girls, and they want you, Hailey. They know a good thing when they see one. You are so awesome, Hailey. I am just excited. Tickled purple and turquoiseâBeta Gamma Pi colors, okayâthat they want my little sister to be a part of our sisterhood. Youâre so strong and care about yourself; you could be a great leader.â
âYeah, right. You tried for a position within the national office, and I saw what it did to you.â
Hayden thanked the waiter as she sipped her water with lemon. Then she said, âYeah, but I didnât win. The President appointed me to a national committee, and itâs been great serving. You could go all the way because you have vision. People like you. If you need to try out other organizations by going to their rushes or talking to them, I support that. I donât wanna cram what I know to be the best down your throat. I feel confident to say that if you go and check out the others, youâre gonna want to come to Beta Gamma Pi. Because when itâs done right, we are the stuff. We are the standard. We are the paradigm.â
4
BIASED
â I know what sorority I wanna be in,â Teddi said to me as I got ready to go to Rho Tau Nuâs rush.
âThatâs great, girl. I havenât decided if pledging is for me, but I owe it to myself to go and give everybody a chance and figure out if itâs even something I want.â
âWhat, Hailey? Girl, you are a legacy, and Iâm not one. Thereâs nobody in my family who is a Beta, but I know BGP is it for me. You should know that better than anybody,â Teddi said, almost salty that my mind wasnât made up.
âWell, I donât, okay? I know what itâs like firsthand from my mom and my sister. Itâs not all smiles. Iâve seen their tears. I just wanna see if there is another sorority I can gel with.â
âYouâre just gonna be committing suicide if you do that, girl. The Betas arenât gonna want you if they see you trying out everything in the world.â
âIf thatâs the case, it wasnât right for me to pledge Beta Gamma Pi. Besides, it was my sister who encouraged me to get out there and see for myself. She felt confident that I was gonna pick her sorority. If she isnât sweating it, why should you?â
Teddi came over to me and grabbed both of my hands. âLook, I know weâve been distant for the past weeks, and Iâve been really angry with you. The last thing I want is for us to keep having distance like we have. Weâre sisters. Not sorority sisters, not blood sisters, but we are sisters connected at the heart, and I want us to experience some things together. We talked about coming to college together to do this stuff. We donât take classes together. We donât do any extracurriculars together. Canât we try to get our bond back? Am I the only one who wants that?â
Needing to have a really tough conversation with her, I frankly said, âWait. Stop, Teddi. We donât take any classes together because Iâm in pre-law, and youâre in education. Our scholastic paths donât even cross like that.â
âWell, we were gonna do stuff with SGA. You were supposed to be in my cabinet. Now thereâs a message on my door from the new President saying he wants to meet with you tomorrow. Whatâs that about, Hailey?â
âReally?â I questioned in a shocked tone. âIâm not going to be able to meet with him tomorrow.â
âYeah, Iâm sure