me . . .â His voice slid over her skin as gently as his fingers. âDo you think of me when youâre alone at night, in your room?â
âNo.â
He smiled again. Though he drew her no closer, Kasey felt the needs battering inside her. She was unaccustomed to restraining passion, unused to feeling it necessary.
âYou donât lie well.â
âYour arrogance is showing again, Jordan.â
âI think of you.â His fingers roamed to the back of her neck and tightened. âToo much.â
âI donât want you to.â Her voice was weak, and that frightened her. âNo, I donât want you to.â Shaking her head, she pulled away from him. âIt wouldnât work.â
âWhy?â
âBecause . . .â She fumbled and became more frightened. No one had been able to do this to her before. âBecause weâre looking for different things. I need more than youâd be able to give me.â She ran a hand through her hair and knew she had to escape. âIâm going to take a break. We can pick up after lunch.â
Jordan watched her dash from the room.
Sheâs right, of course, he thought, frowning at the closed door. Everything she says makes perfect sense. Why canât I stop thinking about her? He walked around his desk and sat back down at the typewriter. She shouldnât appeal to me. Leaning back, he tried to dissect what he felt for her and why. Was it simply a physical attraction? If it was, why was he suddenly drawn toward a woman who was nothing like any other woman he had desired? And why did he find himself thinking of her at odd momentsâwhen he was shaving, when he was in the middle of structuring a paragraph? It would be best if he simply accepted his feelings as desire and left it at that. There wasnât room for anything else. She was right, he decided. It wouldnât work.
He turned back to his notes, typed two sentences and swore.
Dashing through the parlor on her way to her room, Kasey spotted Alison sitting primly on the sofa reading. The girl looked up, and her eyes lit.
âHi.â Kasey could feel nerves and longings still running through her. âPlaying hookey?â
âItâs Saturday,â Alison told her. She gave Kasey a hesitant smile.
âOh.â She would have had to be blind not to see the needs in the childâs eyes. Setting aside her own problems, she sat next to Alison. âWhatâre you reading?â
â Wuthering Heights. â
âHeavy stuff,â Kasey commented, flipping a few pages and losing Alisonâs place. âI was reading Superman comic books at your age.â She smiled and ran a hand down Alisonâs hair. âStill do, sometimes.â
The child was staring at her with a mixture of awe and longing. Kasey bent down to kiss the top of her head. âAlison.â She swept her eyes down the girlâs blue linen pants suit. âAre you attached to that outfit?â
Alison looked down and stammered. âIâI donât know.â
âDo you have any grubbies?â
âGrubbies?â Alison repeated, experimentally rolling the word around on her tongue.
âYou know, old jeans, something with a hole in it, a chocolate stain.â
âNo. I donât thinkââ
âNever mind.â Kasey grinned at her and set the book aside. âWith all the clothes you have, one outfit shouldnât be missed. Come on.â Rising, she took Alisonâs hand and pulled her to the patio door.
âWhere are we going?â
Kasey glanced down at Alison. âWeâre going to borrow the gardenerâs hose and make mud sculptures. I want to see if you can get dirty.â They stepped outside.
âMud sculptures?â Alison repeated as they wound their way around to the garden.
âThink about it as an art project,â Kasey suggested. âAn educational