wrong?â I asked, wondering what tween angst I had to deal with now. Were girls picking on her, bullying her the way Iâd been? I understood adolescent envy, and for young girls, there was a lot to envy about Angel.
âI just have a lot on my mind,â she said.
I chuckled. âAngel, youâre eleven. You shouldnât have anything more on your mind than what youâre going to wear to casual Friday at school tomorrow.â
âIâm not that shallow. I may not be grown, but Iâm really mature for my age.â
âOkay,â I said, chuckling. I didnât know why my daughter was so determined to be grown. âWhatâs on your mind?â
She released a long-drawn-out sigh. âMy future.â
In that instant, I knew where this conversation was going. Iâd been able to avoid it with Angel for two weeks since Iâd first heard this nonsense from Caroline. And I certainly hadnât said anything about the talk I had with Bobby. To me, this was a closed subject, though it felt like my daughter was about to kick it wide open.
Angel began, âDad said that you guys talked about me going to New York. Thatâs why he came by the other morning, right?â
I spoke slowly because everything I said had to be on point. âThatâs right.â
She lifted her head from my chest and looked straight at me. âMom, I really want to do it. I want to go to school in New York.â
Iâd said no to Bobby, but saying no to Angel wasnât going to be so easy. And clearly saying no to Bobby didnât mean much since heâd still gone behind my back and talked to Angel anyway.
âI donât want you to be mad at Dad,â she said, as if sheâd heard my thoughts. âItâs just that today, I asked him if he had talked to you and he told me he did and that you werenât happy about it.â
âHe shouldnât have done that,â I told her. âHe shouldnât have talked to you about what he and I discussed. This is grown folksâ business.â
âI know, but Dad treats me differently than you do. He treats me more like an adult.â
âAnd that would be wrong since youâre a child.â
âWell, maybe not like a grown, grown, grown adult, but he treats me like Iâm mature, so we talk about everything.â
The next time I saw Bobby . . .
Before I could plot out all the ways I was going to handle him, Angel said, âMom, why donât you want me to go?â
âItâs not necessary.â
âBut it is! Because my whole life Iâve wanted to be a singer, and a dancer, and an actress, and a model. And I know that if I want to do all of those things, I have to be really trained. And the School of Performing Arts is the best place in the world for me to get my training.â
âI think âthe best place in the worldâ is a slight exaggeration. Weâre in L.A., this is the home of actors and models and dancers and singers. Look at all the classes youâre taking.â
Angel looked at me as if I had a âBig Dummyâ tattoo on my forehead. âOkay, Mom,â she said. âI know youâre spending a lot of money on everything for all of my lessons and classes and Iâm really grateful. But these classes right hereâtheyâre amateur hour compared to the training Iâll get in New York at the School of Performing Arts.â
I had to shut my mouth and look at my daughter for an extra minute before I answered. She was starting to soundâa little grown.
âWhat do you know about the School of Performing Arts?â I asked, trying not to sound like I was getting an attitude. And believe me, I was getting an attitude because I (with Bobbyâs checkbook) paid a lot of money for her dancing classes with Debbie Allen, her acting classes with Raquel Wendy Robinson, and it had cost a small fortune for Bobby to fly in one of