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is the last time you
actually spoke to her?"
    Okay he had a
point, but she has been texting me regularly. Oh yeah Maddox and what has she
been saying? Please forgive me. Fuck, the same thing over and over.
    "Listen
Jonas I have to think about this let me catch you later." I hung up before
he could answer. Looks like my day was starting out with a bang. Fuck my life.

Chapter
15

 
    I spent the
rest of my day torturing myself shut away in my room going through the
publications Jane had left. There were times I almost snapped but I held my
shit together. I had a two-year-old nephew running around, that shit would probably
scare him to death if he saw his uncle acting like a caveman. Some of that shit
I couldn't even look at.
    I took a break
to go play with Rex, he seemed to be holding his own pretty good since I was
here, we didn't let him sleep with us at home, but he was so damn lost that at
night I was sneaking him into my room. Poor lil tyke missed his mama, the
bitch. There was some shit in the rags about us fighting over Rex, like that
shit would happen, let's face shit, if I can't trust you anymore why the fuck would
I trust you with my kid? Okay Rex was a dog, but he was still my responsibility
he couldn't fend for himself and I'm sure when I signed those papers to take
him home those people expected me to take care of him. If people couldn't use
better judgment they shouldn't be trusted, nough said. I could give a fuck who
agreed with me, that's my stand fuck off.
    When I was
through driving myself crazy with this fuckery I joined my family downstairs.
Jonathan was running the show as usual, getting into shit.
    "Hey son
you're looking better." My dad gave me one of his smug looks.
    "Yeah dad
I'm cool." The rest of them checked me out like I was a mental patient
fresh off the meds. The fuck?
    "Dinner
will be ready in about ten minutes." Mom called from the kitchen. I wasn't
sure I could swallow anything but if I wanted to keep the women in this house
off my ass I was gonna have to make an effort. We made small talk until dinner
was ready my nephew was pulling the fuck out of my hair and laughing. At least
he kept the rest of them distracted from my fuckery; I was jittery as fuck not
knowing what the hell to do with myself.
    I wanted to
know what the fuck was going on with Suzette but I didn't want to talk to her
brother again, he obviously had a missing link. The only thing I could think of
was putting a shadow on her but that didn't feel right to me, I didn't want any
other motherfucker near her, plus this was private, fuck if I knew what to do.
I played it cool with the family, bullshitting with them around the dinner table,
I guess my acting lessons were paying off because not even mom picked up on my
shit and she was worse than a hound on a fox hunt.
    It's two
o'clock in the morning and I can't sleep for shit, I'm restless and twitchy
I've pretty much been in the same state since receiving that phone call. It's a
bitch analyzing yourself when you're all alone in the middle of the night
without alcohol to cloud your mind. Who am I right now? I don't know who the
fuck I've been since this fuckery started, it's like I left my body or
something and was just going on fumes. I don't think I really stopped to think
about what the fuck I was dealing with. I needed to have a one to one alright
but not with that fuck Terry Poole, I needed to have one with myself. This was
my life, I wanted it back and no douchetard motherfucker was going to control
what I did or how I felt, fuck that shit. What's mine I keep, I wish a
motherfucker would fuck with my shit ever again. Balls to the wall Maddox.
    It was time to
go General Hannibal on these fucks.
    I had keys in
hand and was in my Aston Martin in lest than ten minutes.

 
    I made the trip
in half the time; what the fuck was the point in having a sports car if you
weren't going to utilize it? I parked a little ways down the street from my destination
and walked. The street was