laughing. Letting the sun soak my arms, nursing aâ¦slushy? Or maybe something more exotic?
There would be music playing, something hip and upbeat, maybe a Duke Ellington remixed jazz tune, and around me birds chirping, the smell of summer, the sounds of unfamiliar speechâ
Wait, I have to speak another language?
Donât interrupt!
The sounds of unfamiliar speech. Perhaps Iâm picking at a Greek salad. Iâm looking svelte in a sleeveless silk blouse and black capris. My hair is long, sun-bleached, straight and a hint of pink dots my nose. Iâm chewing, noiselessly of course, when a shadow cascades over me. I look up.
âHi, Jose.â
I expected him and I push out the wicker chair with my foot. âSit down, Chase.â
Heâs looking tan because heâs been spending all that time in the mountains. His blond hair is long, slightly tangled and heâs a little rumpled in an oxford and chinos, as if heâs been in a hurry to get to me.
Of course.
âAre you in town long?â I ask as he sits.
He shakes his head, and there is definite disappointment on his face. âJust for an hour. But I had to see you.â
Elizabeth, eat your heart out.
âWhat do you want?â Iâm buying. After all, the guy crossed an ocean for me. But he leans across the table, takes my hand. It is warm and strong, and for a second the touch sweeps the breath right out of my chest. Then he smiles, his blue eyes gleaming.
âJust you.â
âJosey, Iâm going over to Red Rooster to pick up their grocery ad for the week. Can you man the office for me?â Myrtle hollers from the Java Cup doorway.
I blink out of the moment. Chaseâs hand dissolves in mine, leaving it cold. Iâm staring at my screen, which has gone into saver mode. The Microsoft icon twirls around the page. âMan the shop. Yes, right.â I sigh, straighten my shirt and quickly exit the browser.
Yeah, I can man the office. But not for long.
Iâm going to Russia.
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H gave me two things when she exited Gull Lake.
1. The name of her hairdresser in Minneapolis.
2. Her AOL IM identity for future counseling purposes.
Iâm not quite ready to coordinate my hair color with my clothes, but I need a friend tonight at 2:00 a.m., as the moon slants across Jasmineâs empty single bed and crawls toward me. Iâm in my jammiesâan old T-shirt with the Tasmanian devil plastered on the front. Iâve had it since I was sixteen and my future mate will have to pry it off my cold, dead body before Iâll part with it. If he doesnât like cotton, an oversized beast and a little rip in the sleeve, then Iâm not his girl. He might actually like the rip.
Iâve got my laptop on my legs, and a glass of water with lemon sweating on the bedside table.
One good thing about having a friend who makes her living mixing margaritas and fuzzy navels is that 2:00 a.m. is her prime time. Besides, Jasmine is still on her honeymoon. H answers my IM query.
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Hello, Jose! Whatâs up?
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Remind me why Iâm doing this.
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Iâve spent the last two weeks tracking down references, talking to my pastor, fielding objections from my mother, answering questions like, âWhat do you believe about Baptism?â (I donât let Myrtle see my answer), taking a mug shot and getting a physical. (And I didnât appreciate the doctor mentioning that Iâd gained fifteen pounds since my last one. Good grief, I was twelve! Give me a break!) The finished envelope is sealed and sitting on my dresser. Like a bomb.
Tick tick, I can nearly hear it waiting to explode and change my life.
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You want more from your life.
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But I have a pretty good life. I like Myrtle. And I have a view.
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Do you want to be Myrtle? Iâm asking because if you donât do this youâll end up inheriting her cabin.
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