we got to deal with it. Now, I donât believe in no heaven or no hell or any of that afterlife crap, so I intend to get what pleasure I can out of the rest of my life. Do you understand?â
Did I understand? Hell, no, he was a pedophile. And things were looking all too much like the rest of his life took precedence over the rest of my life, but I couldnât say that, because talking about it might make it too true too soon. I was having a lot of trouble coming up with an answer.
âDidnât you hear a word I said? Are you stupid?â Jeez, one silent moment and heâd flipped from chatty nice guy to threatening psycho.
âAs you said, youâre a thinker,â I replied as calmly as I could. âYouâre way ahead of me. I need time to consider your point of view.â
âHuh.â He seemed somewhat mollified. âWell, youâre gonna have all day.â He picked up his pistol. âBack to bed with you, Miss Lee Anna.â
FOUR
M y request for a blanket had been denied. âWhat for? It ainât cold.â Maybe Stoat was afraid I knew some kind of Houdini escape I could perform under cover of a blanket. Maybe he enjoyed making me lie there for hours on end, physically and emotionally uncomfortable with my legs immodestly spread. Maybe he just didnât want to be bothered.
Hell, he didnât matter. Justin mattered.
Staring at the ceiling again and feeling the age lines in my face deepen, I tried to think how best to approach Justin. Wanting to rescue him was just fine, but I couldnât do it until Iâd rescued myself, which probably meant talking him into helping me. But in my experience, most teenage boys would rather sit on a fire ant hill than talk with a motherly woman.
I could hear Justin doing chores. First the breakfast dishes, judging by the sound of running water and the clatter of plates, and thenâwhump of pillows being plumpedâmaking the bed he shared with âUncle Steve,â a thought that made me feel sick.
Donât go there,
I told myself; the anthill syndrome went double in regard to talking about personal things. If I ever got to talk to Justin at all. What would be the best way to lure him into my room and get him talking? I could start fussing through my gagâ
Justin walked in, sat down on the side of my bed, pulled the gag out of my mouth, and slipped it down beneath my chin. âHow are you doing?â he asked. âCan I get you anything?â
So much for fire ant hills and most teenage boys. My mouth and throat felt strangely dry. âUm, Iâm okay,â I managed to croak.
Justin nodded. âI know itâs not real comfortable. Uncle Steve kept me tied to this same bed for the first month.â
The first
month
!
âHe would come home in the middle of the day to check on me,â Justin added. âHe told his boss he was taking care of a sick dog. Heâs not a bad guy, really.â
What?
If Stoat wasnât a bad guy, then would somebody please defineâ
But I didnât say that. I felt eggshells under my verbal feet. One false step, one wrong word, and Iâd lose Justin. Even clearing my dry throat would be a bad idea at this point.
In the lightest tone I could possibly manage, I asked, âHow do you figure that?â
âWell, he lets me watch NASCAR. He brings me stuff I like to eat, like Oreosâhe doesnât care about them, but he gets them for me. And the brand of cereal I like, andâand clothes and stuff. Last year he even got me a Christmas present. A PlayStation.â
I wanted to scream or laugh or cryâhe sounded so ludicrous, thankful for Oreos and a PlayStation while Stoat the insult to goats kept him as a sex slave. Needing time to contain my outrage and prompted by my raspy throat, I asked, âCould I have a glass of water?â
âSure.â Justin headed toward the kitchen. As soon as he had left the room, I aimed a
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