youâre more likely to be a page or something, but it wonât be because youâre a girl.â
This is what Iâve been listening for but not wanting to hearâthat Iâm too late to the party and donât even have a chance at a good part.
âI know what I want,â I say, closing the book. âIf youâre done, we can go.â
âYeah, Iâm ready,â Mandy says. She tosses the CliffsNotes, grabs a copy of the special edition, and tucks it under her arm like she planned to buy it all along.
âSure thatâs not going to hurt your brain?â Drew asks when he sees Mandyâs book, and I bristle. Mandy might not be a scholar , but thatâs choice, not a lack of intelligence.
Mandy smiles at me. âCaddie thinks itâs good.â
She links her arm through mine, pulling me close. Her hand slides down close to mine, and I gasp, jerk away.
âWhoa,â says Mandy, like Iâm a horse, âeasy, girl.â
My heart wants a breath for every beatâso much airâbut I wonât let it trick me. I make my voice gentle, no stress. âI donât like anyone to touch me lately.â The best lies have a little truth in them. âItâs weird, but I lay out in the sun the other day . . .â
Mandy knows my pasty skin never tans.
âIt was dumb, but I thought with school starting . . .â I let her see me embarrassed. Making it part of the act takes its power away. âI got sun poisoning.â Her eyes dart to my super-pale hands. âI mean, I wasnât even out long enough to burn, but I got these red bumps. Thatâs why the long sleeves. So gross. And it still hurts.â
âYowch,â Mandy says, happy to keep her distance now that weâre talking about skin bumps. âYouâve got to take care of yourself, girl.â
I nod. No kidding.
Mandy decides our next stop should be Ragamuffin, a consignment shop in Southside where we can get rehearsal clothes on the cheap. Drew speeds through the Red Mountain Expressway Cut, the rust-red corridor that was blasted from the mountain, and thereâs Vulcan, the Roman god of the forge. If a pagan can be a patron saint, heâs Birminghamâs. Heâs the largest cast iron statue in the world, and he towers over his anvil wearing only an apron so his naked butt moons Homewood.
As he drives, Drew shifts his hand back and forth between Mandyâs thigh and the gearshift. They touch so easily.
âPeter says hi,â Mandy says.
âWhat?â My voice cracks.
Mandyâs fiddling with her phone. âI texted that we were out shopping. He says hi.â
âHeâs the one who messed with your car, right?â I try to sound nonchalant.
âRi-ight,â Mandy says, eyeing me with suspicion, and I immediately realize how stupidly fake I must sound. Mandy watched me meet Peter yesterday, and itâs not like I met a billion other people.
âYou heard about the Great Car Caper,â Drew says, laughing.
Mandy twists around to stare at me. âYou like him,â she crows. âYou! Like! Peter!â
I shift my eyes toward Drewâ Hello, male in the car. In the rearview, his eyes are amused.
âI donât like him. I mean, I donât dis like him. I donât even knowââ
âLies! You like him. Now talk. How can you be attracted to Peter?â asks Mandy.
âI never said I was.â
âBut you are ,â Mandy says. âThatâs clear.â
I sink deeper into my seat.
âHeâs tall,â she says. âIâll give you that. Heâs got a certain boyish charm.â
Drew clears his throat.
âIâm just trying to empathize,â Mandy says. âPlease. I could never go for someone soâwhatâs the word Iâm looking for? Cocky?â
âPeterâs not cocky. Peterâs a nerd,â Drew says.
âI know! Where does he get