to see you home at a decent hour, son.â
âYeah, I know,â Lyon grumbles over the toothpick that pokes out from between his lips. Heâd almost started smoking again, a year ago, when the doctors told us that Mom was sick, but sheâd made him promise that heâd never go back to tobacco. Instead, he chews through forests of toothpicks.
âIâm making dinner,â I tell him, sounding too hopeful.
âSmells good.â But he throws me a weak half smile that tells me he wonât be sticking around for dinner. I can almost hear him say Iâm sorry, kiddo âwords he used to offer up whenever I got sad or disappointed, words that always made me feel better. Almost as soon as that half smile appears, though, it disappears. Faster than a shy rabbit.
Lyon thumps to the counter where we keep the mail. âI canât stay.â Charcoal crescents hang like hammocks under his bloodshot eyes. Shadows that werenât there a year ago. But then, a year ago, before Mom started going to the hospital for treatments, his black hair hadnât been edged with so much gray.
His latest toothpick slides to the opposite side of his mouth as he flips through envelopes. âI left some orders here, need to get them back to the store.â
Of course he does.
âWhereâs our favorite dog?â Lyon glances right, and then left, his gaze pausing on Dead Endâs rumpled fleece dog bed lying neglected in the kitchen corner.
âWith Cub,â I spit out as if lying is something I do every day. âHe took him for a long walk.â
Lyonâs forehead crinkles, probably from confusion since Cub has never taken Dead End anywhere without me. But Lyon leaves my lie alone, doesnât poke holes in it. A year ago, heâd have picked up on this fib in a hummingbirdâs heartbeat. Because he knows me inside and out. But heâs stopped paying attention to what I do, or stopped caring.
Shaking his head, G.D. looks away from me, grumbling his disapproval. âSarah Doyle called again,â he tells Lyon after a minute that feels more like a week. âShe wants you to get back to her.â
Lyon gives me a smug look that Iâve come to hate worse than canned peas. It says, You and I both know why sheâs calling. Then he tips his head down, as if focusing on me over the top of glasses, and silently asks, âYou ready to go visit your momâs place under the dogwood tree yet, Dill?â Heâs thrown this question my way too many times already in the last three months. It always makes me tight. And my continuing refusal to go within ten miles of Fairfax County makes Lyon tight. Iâd like to say that this makes us even, but it only makes me miserable. Before Mom got sick, Lyon and I went everywhere together.
âWhy donât you both visit the Doyles this weekend andâ¦â G.D. pauses before hitting the issue smack in the center. He glances sidelong at me as I get ready to cram my fingers into my ears.
âSounds good to me,â Lyon says. âWeâll go see where yourâ¦â
I mutter a solid âNoâ that cuts him off.
With a sigh that shows Iâm exhausting him, Lyon flips more envelopes. âApparently, Sarah Doyle and I are going to need a tow truck to drag Dill to Fairfax.â
I clear my throat. âIâm making G.D.âs southwestern chili,â I tell Lyon, hoping to change the subject while also tempting him into staying home. âI made cornbread, too, with corn off the cob mixed in. The way you like it.â The way Mom always made it.
Of course, he keeps sorting stupid envelopes. âIâm sure itâs delicious, Dill.â Lyon drops the remaining mail on the counter. âMaybe Iâll have some when I get home tonight.â Before I can offer up an argument, he turns to G.D. âHow you feeling, Pop?â
âNever mind me. Whatâs the latest with that new
Laura Harner, L.E. Harner