him.
âFriends,â Nick scoffed.
I ignored him. Iâd tell him off later, if his batteries didnât run down before Tucker left.
Chester nudged me again. It was harder to ignore him.
âThis is no good,â Tucker lamented quietly. âOur being apart, that is. And itâs not as if Iâm married. Allison and I are legally divorced.â
âGo home, Tucker. Go catch a bad guy. Iâve got nothing to offer you but grilled cheese.â
Nick rolled his eyes.
Tucker brought me the water. He hesitated, then said, âYouâre sure youâre all right?â
âIâm fine, Tucker.â
I set the water bottle aside on the end table, stood, and sort of steered him to the door. There, he laid his hands on my shoulders and brushed a kiss across my forehead, beneath my bangs.
I hoped he didnât feel the tremor that went through me.
âCall me if you need anything,â he said.
ââCall me if you need anything,ââ Nick mimicked, from about a foot behind me. âGag me with a kickstand.â If heâd been breathing, I probably would have felt it on my nape.
Tucker left. Reluctantly.
I closed the door and turned on Nick, ready to rip a strip off him.
But he was gone.
I looked around. âChester?â
My cat was gone, too.
For a long time, I just stood there, trying to make sense of it all. Then, disconsolately, I went into the kitchen, picked up the plate Iâd put out for Chester and dumped the tuna down the disposal.
I didnât miss Nick. If he never came back, it would be too soon.
But I sure as hell missed the cat.
CHAPTER 3
I slept in the living room, on the couch, figuring Iâd be less likely to wake up and find Nick lying beside me, since he wouldnât fit. I guess it worked, because he wasnât there when I opened my eyes, but Chester was.
He sat on the coffee table next to Lillianâs three Tarot cards, which were standing in an ominous little row, propped against the big Mexican fruit bowl Iâd bought at the flea market a couple of years before.
I swung my feet over the side of the couch, sat upright and rubbed my face with both hands. When I looked again, Chester was still there.
âMeow,â he said.
Okay, this was a major sign of my mental instability, but I was glad to see him just the sameâsans the arrow from Geoffâs bow. I had mostly visceral memories of the cat, nothing very specific, but his bloody end was vivid in my mind. I knew Iâd found him in the backyard of our place in Cactus Bend, behind the storage shed where my dad kept all the stuff he was constantly swapping. Heâd called it âhorse-trading.â I recalled that, too, all of a sudden, but there were never any horses.
That was Dad for you. All dreams and wishes, no substance.
âHey, Buddy,â I said to the cat. After the briefest hesitation, I reached out to pat his head. Silky soft, solid and warm. No glow, either.
I was heartened. Glad Iâd taken the risk of touching him.
He meowed again, and knocked down all three Tarot cards with one swipe of his tail.
I left the Queen, the Page and Death where they lay. Iâd studied them half the night, along with their corresponding chapters in The Damn Foolâs Guide to the Tarot, with a sensation of dread in the pit of my stomach the whole time. I was still in the dark. I didnât know much about the symbology, but I did know that Lillian always read them intuitively, without recourse to books. Sheâd told me once that Tarot cards were like little windows into the psyche; you just had to learn the language of the subconscious mind.
Since the day was already underway, whether I wanted to go along for the ride or not, I decided Iâd better jump aboard. Do something constructive, like eat and make coffee.
The phone rang as I entered the kitchen, Chester prancing twitchy-tailed behind me, and I picked up the cordless receiver and