that. Nothing to give me the impression that she hoped for the same things I did or that it wouldn’t absolutely destroy what friendship we had if I were to get what I wanted.
But she leaned back against the cushions and angled her head up so she could look at me, trailing her fingers along the seams of a throw pillow. “What would you do if I kissed you right now?”
My jaw might have hit the floor.
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It was safe to say I’d shocked Jackson as much as I’d surprised myself. At least he didn’t look disgusted or appalled by my suggestion, but that didn’t eliminate the overwhelming urge to backtrack.
I shifted, inching away from him and wishing I had another drink handy. I could stand to chug another and buy some courage. “Not that I’m going to do that or anything,” I hurried to say. “Stupid question. Ignore that one. Let me try—”
“I’d kiss you back,” he cut in, leaving me stunned and breathless. “I’d fist my hand in your hair, angle your head until you were exactly how I wanted you, and kiss the ever-loving shit out of you until you were hot and wet and squirming to get closer to me. I’d kiss you so hard you’d be panting. Aching. Ready to come the second I put my hands on you. But I wouldn’t touch you. Not yet. I’d draw it out using only my lips and teeth and tongue until you were desperate, shaking, and begging for more. Even then I wouldn’t touch you where you wanted me to, because that’s how you’ve made me feel for as long as I’ve known you. Frantic. Desperate. Needy.”
Those words about summed it up, in terms of how I was feeling at the moment. He didn’t even have to lay a finger on me, and I was already slick and swollen.
“You shouldn’t tease me like that,” I muttered.
“Tease you? You think I’m teasing you?”
“Aren’t you?” There wasn’t any other good reason he would say anything like that. I’d gone and screwed up by letting slip the direction my thoughts had taken, and now he was using that against me, along with the fact that I was definitely more than a bit tipsy.
Jackson let his eyes roam all over me, which only made me hotter than I already was. “Why don’t you try me?” he asked.
I shook my head. “I don’t know—”
“Try it. Kiss me and see if I don’t do exactly what I said I would. I dare you.”
“I don’t want a dare.” At least not that one. “That’s not how the game works. I’m supposed to get a choice.”
He looked disappointed, his brow creasing for a moment before his expression dropped back to normal. “Fine, then you want to give me truth instead?”
Not really, but I’d started this game. Damn it. Why had I thought it was a good idea? “Yes,” I said. “Truth.” Maybe he’d go easy on me. Probably not, but a girl could hope.
“Okay. Tell me what you would do if I kissed you like that.”
“You wouldn’t,” I spluttered.
“I would.”
I shook my head, sure the alcohol was screwing with my interpretation of the situation.
“I will,” Jackson said. He sounded like he meant it. He’d been sounding like he meant it. Fully serious. Not joking at all. This wasn’t the sort of thing he would joke about, and I knew it, even if my brain was having a hard time keeping up with reality.
“Why would you do that?” I whispered.
“Because I’ve wanted to kiss you and more for years, but this is the first time you’ve ever given me any indication that you’d be on board with it.”
Every breath I took sparked a new series of tiny explosions inside my chest, my belly, surging out toward my fingers and toes and lips.
“So is it all in my head?” he asked. “Just something I’ve been hoping would happen for so long that I’ve convinced myself it’s real? Or will you react the way I think you will when I kiss you?”
When I kiss you . Not if. Jackson was talking about it like it was a foregone conclusion. Like he truly intended to follow through with what he