what John might be wrestling with in the dark of his soul, but thereâs a limit to what others can
take
.â The edge was there in her voice and I wondered what it was made of: rage, humiliation perhaps, the martyrdom of the meek at the hands of the wretched.
I said, âI gather Johnâs been a bit of a trial.â
Essie pressed her lips together, clutching her hands in her lap. âWell, itâs just like the Bible says. â
Love
your enemies,
bless
them that curse you, do
good
to them that hate you, and pray for them which despitefully use you and persecute youâ!â Her tone was accusatory. She began to rock with agitation.
Whoa, I thought, this ladyâs heat gauge has shot right up into the red.
Eugene creaked in his chair, snagging my attention with a gentle clearing of his throat. âYou said you saw him on Saturday. May I ask what the occasion was?â
I realized then that I should have devoted a lot more time to the fib Iâd told because I couldnât think how to respond, I was so unnerved by Essie Daggettâs outburst that my mind went blank.
She leaned forward then. âHave you been saved?â
âExcuse me, what?â I said, squinting.
âHave you taken Jesus into your heart? Have you set aside
sin
? Have you
repented
? Have you been washed in the Blood of the
Lamb
?â
A spark of spit landed on my face, but I didnât dare react. âNot lately,â I said. What is it about me that attracts women like this?
âNow Essie, Iâm sure she didnât come by to ponder the state of her soul,â Eugene said. He glanced at his watch. âMy goodness, I believe itâs time for your medication.â
I took the opportunity to rise. âI donât want to take up any more of your time,â I said, conversationally. âI really appreciate your help on this and if I need any more information, Iâll give you a call.â I fumbled in my handbag for a business card and left it on the table.
Essie had kicked into high gear by now. â âAnd they shall stone thee with stones, and
thrust
thee through with their swords. And they shall burn thine houses with fire, and execute judgments upon thee in the sight of many women; and I will cause thee to
cease
from playing harlot, and thou also shalt give no hire anymore . . .â â
âWell, okay now, thanks a lot,â I called, easing toward the door. Eugene was patting Essieâs hands, too distracted to worry about my departure.
I closed the door and trotted back to my car at a quick clip. It was getting dark and I didnât like the neighborhood.
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Friday morning I got up at 6:00 and headed over to the beach for my run. For much of the summer, Iâd been unable to jog because of an injury, but Iâd been back at it for two months and I was feeling good. Iâve never rhapsodized about exercise and Iâd avoid it if I could, but I notice the older I get, the more my body seems to soften, like butter left out at room temp. I donât like to watch my ass drop and my thighs spread outward like jodhpurs made of flesh. In the interest of tight-fitting jeans, my standard garb, I jog three miles a day on the bicycle path that winds along the beach front.
The dawn was laid out on the eastern skyline like watercolors on a matte board: cobalt blue, violet, and rose bleeding together in horizontal stripes. Clouds were visible out on the ocean, plump and dark, pushing the scent of distant seas toward the tumbling surf. It was cold and I ran as much to keep warm as I did to keep in shape.
I got back to my apartment at 6:25, showered, pulled on a pair of jeans, a sweater, and my boots, and then ate a bowl of cereal. I read the paper from front to back, noting with interest the weather map, which showed the radiating spiral of a storm sweeping toward us from Alaska. An 80 percent chance of showers was forecast for the