of power.â Lucien pretended interest in the condition of his hands. âSo, now thatâs settled, any plans until the sunrise?â
Wariness worked through Janiâs growing haze as the many possible replies to Lucienâs simple question presented themselves. Sheâd visited his flat only a handful of times, and had never stayed the night despite his veiled, and not-so-veiled, invitations. As always, she felt that she intruded, that she had entered a place in which she didnât belong, the inner workings of which she didnât want to know. She stood and gathered her coat. âI should go home.â
âI hope I havenât offended your delicate sensibilities.â Lucienâs voice sharpened, the soft French Provincial accent faded to nothing. âI have showered. Unfortunately, the bruises wonât be healed before you have to leaveââ
âLucien.â Jani stopped in the middle of the room. The hand that held her coat felt gloved in lead. It hung at her side, leaving the garment to drag on the floor. âThe psych job. Save it for someone who buys it.â
âI would have done anything he wanted in order to find out how you were.â
âRough trade for information. Youâve done it before. You crave the power. The control. You like it. Your. Choice.â Jani fixed on the image of Pullman being lifted from the snow onto the stretcherâthe memory touched some deep place within her and released sensations sheâd long suppressed, touch and smell and sound. âWell, there were times in my event-filled past when I didnât have a choice. So stop trying to make me feel guilty about all the awful things youâve put yourself through on my account, because your primary consideration has always, always , been whatâs best for Lucien Pascal.â Her breathing came laboredâthe sense of weight had moved up her arm and across her chest.
âPost-augie irritability, compounded by fatigue and the effects of hybridization. Aggravated by all those memories that bubble to the surface because youâve lost the will tokeep them locked down where they belong.â Lucien left the doorway and walked to her, shaking his head. âI know the feeling.â
Jani opened her hand and let the coat fall to the floor. âYou are a liar.â
âYes, but Iâm your liar.â Lucien rested his hand on the open neck of her coverall, then waited to see if sheâd pull away. When she didnât, he opened the top fastener, the second, the third, his fingertips brushing her skin with each slow movement. âYour spy. Your whore. Your whatever you happen to need at the time.â He bent close, his lips and tongue tracing swirls of heat along her throat and neck as he slipped the garment from her shoulders. âAll I want in return is the chance to make us both feel better for a little while. Is that too much to ask?â
Jani took Lucienâs hands in hers and held them away from her body. Caught the chill that flashed in his eyes, the anger at a need denied. Pushed down his hands until they hung at his sides, then freed them. Counted the seconds as they stood, still and barely breathing, separated by a few scraps of cloth and a gulf of understanding wider than any sea.
âMy choice.â She leaned forward and kissed him.
CHAPTER 3
âIf the mine was deliberately planted, how do you think the idomeni will react?â Lucien exited the Boul just as the early morning traffic slowed to the usual crawl. âRelations are tense now, but when havenât they been?â He steered the Service-issue sedan onto the deceptive quiet of the Parkway, a graceful seclusion of town houses and apartment buildings separated by parks and scattered shops and restaurants. âBesides, we lost one of ours in this mess, too. That must count for something.â
âNot really.â Jani took what she could from the beauty of
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