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to dance on wednesday she just kept falling over and even when we told her that we can’t do the show without her and we were all depending on her and that this is just a really really inconvenient time for her to get injured and everything she just kept collapsing and everything … then when the orthopedic surgeon told us that she needed surgery asap and she wouldn’t be recovered for four months … I got into a serious panic because I mean It’s Darcy!! starts in just a couple of weeks, really, and to calm me down my boyfriend don dezer … I call him diseazer but the thing is … he showed me this tape of all these really bad girls who auditioned for him last weekend but then when you came on and we watched your routine I was like holy toledo that’s shania! and he was like no it’s not and I was like I know you dick but I need this girl she’s just as good as shania but younger, which really matters, gimme her number … and he said he didn’t have your number anyway that’s when I emailed you and you came here and thank god you’re here and look at you you’re perfect and come upstairs and darla’s going to love you.”
    or something like that. I was just like: Wow. I needed to take a breath after that.
    then she goes, “I’m eileen. Eileen Wang. sorry. nice to meet you. the job pays $40,000 for the summer plus expenses. would that be acceptable?”
    â€œOk!” I said, unable to think, just respond. “and nice to meet you, too!” I realized I was almost yelling. Fortythousand dollars was more than anyone in my family had ever seen at one time.
    From there, the next four hours were a daze. Eileen took me up to this studio and told me to get warmed up. it was really bright in there cause the sun was shining like directly into the windows. well it wasn’t really windows more like a wall that was glass. the whole rest of the room was surrounded by mirrors. I was in there for a while by myself and I started tripping out that they were those two-way kind of mirrors (the kind that they always tell you department stores have in their dressing rooms so you supposedly won’t be tempted to shoplift but really you just get nervous that someone’s seeing you in your underwear … you know those).
    $40,000!!!
    Anyway, Eileen came in a couple of minutes later. she goes, “behind those mirrors over there darcy and a couple of the dancers are hanging out. I’ve already shown them the tape of your routine for ‘Love You Like a Lollipop’ which she totally loved I mean she said it totally rocked. so now they’re having cappuccino fro yos and Kozy Shacks and they want to watch you do the routine in person. I hope it doesn’t freak you out too much that they’re back there … does it? is it too weird? you can tell me if it’s too weird.”
    weird? what do i know from weird? when’s the last time I had to audition for the biggest MTV star in the universe? maybe this is just how it worked. it totallyfreaked me out though. I mean I started thinking maybe there were like 40 people back there, all with clipboards and stuff, looking really mean. but I was like KELLY suck it up and deal this is IT. ok, fine. if it’s two-way mirrors, it’s two-way mirrors. “no problem,” I said, scrounging up a smile. or at least trying to.
    â€œgreat ok I’ll go cue up your music if you’re ready.” she closed the door behind her, and the door kind of melted into the mirror so much that after a while I kind of forgot where the door was. I was TOTALLY tripping out at this point. I knew all these people were watching but all I could see was reflections of myself. it seemed crowded in there, but it was only me. I was truly, schooly freaking out. “ok, sure,” I said.
    this is it, I kept thinking, this is it. don’t blow it. you’ve done this a thousand times so don’t think