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eyes are practically spinning.   He grins and it's the grin of my old man.   It's my grin.   His face flashes with homicide one more time before the idea finally drains away from him as if it was never there at all.   
    He tells me, "The park's closed at night.   From now on sleep at home, whatever the problem might be."
    "Right."
    "Keep out of trouble."  
    "I will."
    He starts to step away but has one last comment to make.   "Your mother is a very handsome woman."
    It freezes me where I stand, like electro-shock, like a lithium shot, like leather straps holding me in place, a twisting knife in the spine.   It's just the wrong thing to say.   It's the very worst thing to say.
    The rage waits for times like these.   It skitters out from behind whatever walls and fences I've built around it, and I realize, once again, that I always leave the largest doors unlocked.   I think I'm chuckling.  
    I'm lucky I can't move.   If I so much as raise a hand to this man I'll have to murder him.   He knows my name.   He knows what my mother looks like.   Like him, if I start something, it has to end in death.  
    So I watch the cop as he recedes back to his patrol car.   Once in his seat his gaze lingers over me for an extra second, and then he pulls out, turns around, and disappears.   A gust of wind rises off the water and blows the black bouquet of a rotting New England south into my face.   I can smell the Salem witch hunts, bodies hanging in the sun. Giles Corey refusing to enter a plea of guilt or innocence, doomed to torture and crushed to death beneath a board covered in rocks.   His words carry on the breeze.   I can hear him demanding of his judges, more weight.   More weight.   What a total badass.   More weight, as the rocks piled up and his lungs exploded.
    I run my index finger along the grooves.
    SAY YOU LOVE SATAN.
    I climb back into the Mustang and follow the slow-trolling cop out of the park.   I kill a couple of hours grabbing a long breakfast at a local diner.   I drive home and find my father's vomit all over the place.   He's had a bad night himself but he made it in to work.   I'm impressed.   There's no note for me.   We'll never exchange words again.  
    I pack my shit in two rucksacks, steal what cash is around, and take a cold shower.   The icy water isn't enough to drive down my fever.   I climb out sweating, my face red, my eyes spider-webbed with bloody veins.    I dry myself.   A couple of the bites and scratches are infected. I clean and bandage them as best as I can.    You could make a set of dentures from the teeth indents on my thighs.  
    I dress, take one last look around, and I'm off for good.  
    I head to the cemetery to make sure that Ricky and his cronies haven't disturbed my mother's grave.   It's entirely conceivable.   I didn't tell him my name but I'm certain he knows it by now.  
    I stand before my mother's tombstone and my ankles throb as if she's reached up and taken hold of them.   She's taught me prayers that aren't quite prayers, and I recite them aloud, louder than I intend.   The fever burns through me.  
    Other mourners and visitors turn in my direction.   Rose petals and strands of silk flowers float by on the breeze.   I nearly ask my mother what I'm supposed to do now, but I'm afraid that she'll answer, with a tone of disappointment thick in her voice.
    It's impossible to shake the image of her skull on Ricky's homemade altar, radiating force and dominion.   I can see him and his followers kneeling before a reliquary of ashen bones and stolen trinkets.   They're out in a field that has a lightning-split coven tree at its center.   They chant petitions and benedictions they've learned from stolen library books.   They dance around in the nude, in the tidal spray, calling on the infernal order, crying out for more soldiers from the pit.  
    I can see Ricky going down his list, name by name, inviting his victims out to the woods, the