water, watching the koi swim back and forth effortlessly. There, listening to the music of the water, he let his grief fill his eyes with tears. Grieving for his wife, for Joyce and William McIvey, grieving for the clinic. They had shared a vision, the four of them. Now he was the only one left, and the vision was fading.
He had not yet moved when he heard a girlâs voice. âYou bastard, you moved the chair farther away!â
âMaybe a little farther,â Darren said. âAnd does your mama know you use such language?â
âWho the fuck do you think taught me?â
Darren laughed. âThe deal still goes. You walk to the chair and earn a ride back.â
Thomas could see them when they rounded a curve, Darren and a teenage black girl. Sweat was running down her face. She was using two canes, learning how to walk with a prosthetic, an artificial leg from the knee down. They rounded the curve and were heading out of sight again when she began to sway.
âI canât feel it! Darren, Iâm falling!â Her voice rose in a wail.
âNo, youâre not. Youâre fine.â He had his arm around her before she finished speaking, and for a time neither of them moved. âSee, what happens is that something in your head wakes up and says, âHey, I donât have a foot down there,â and you feel like youâre going to fall. What we have to do is convince that something in your head that itâs okay, thereâs a working leg and foot, and itâs yours, so get used to it. Ready? Just a few more steps now. Here we go.â
Thomas watched them out of sight, then he realized his hands were clenched into tight fists, and he relaxed them and flexed his fingers.
âIâll fight you, David,â he said under his breath. âIâll fight you every inch of the way.â
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Everything was muted at the clinic that afternoon. A few appointments had been canceled. Some of the therapists and nurses had taken time off for the funeral, and some of the volunteers had excused themselves. Greg and Naomi were gone for the day.
In desperation Bernie had called Erica. âIf you can just sit at the reception desk for an hour or so, Iâll help out in the kitchen. Stephanieâs gone to the funeral.â
Due to the reduced staff and cancellations, traffic was light that afternoon. The two interns working under Darrenâs supervision had their patients as usual, and Winnie Bok, the speech therapist, was on duty. A few others were there with their own flow of patients arriving, leaving. But Erica was not rushed, and she daydreamed that she had trained in physical therapy instead of education, that she now worked full-time here, consulting with Darren, joking with him in the lounge, walking home with him at the end of the dayâ¦.
She chided herself for indulging in romantic schoolgirl fantasies, but they persisted. In fact, she seldom even saw him. He left the clinic every day before she finished reading, and he didnât walk; he rode a bicycle. She had not seen it the day he saved her life, but she had been too shaken to notice much of anything. Sometimes she could hear him in the upper apartment, and one time she had made dinner for two, only to find that he had already left by the time she went up the stairs to invite him to share it.It would be different, she told herself, after he moved in. They would be neighbors, and how much closer could neighbors be, separated by a floor, a ceiling? He would drop in for a chat, for a cup of coffee; she would invite him to dinner; they would have long talks. They would find the key, or simply remove the lock on the upper door of the inside stairs.
Bernie returned a little before four-thirty. âTheyâre back,â she said. âStephanie chased me out of the kitchen. Sheâs in a temper.â
âWhy? What did you do?â Erica got up from the chair and moved aside as Bernie took her usual