had gone right to that place where their expectations for him lived the most strongly, and he had done it with a ruthless expediency that surprised me. Iâm not sure that lesser tactics would have worked against Regina, but that Arnie had actually been able to do it surprised me. In fact, it surprised the shit out of me. What it boiled down to was if Arnie spent his senior year in V.T., college went out the window. And to Michael and Regina, that was an impossibility.
âSo they just. . . gave up?â It was close to punch-in time, but I couldnât let this go until I knew everything.
âNot just like that, no. I told them Iâd find garage space for it and that I wouldnât try to have it inspected or registered until I had their approval.â
âDo you think youâre going to get that?â
He flashed me a grim smile that was somehow both confident and scary. It was the smile of a bulldozer operator lowering the blade of a D-9 Cat in front of a particularly difficult stump.
âIâll get it,â he said. âWhen Iâm ready, Iâll get it.â
And you know what? I believed he would.
4
Arnie Gets Married
We could have had two hours of overtime that Friday evening, but we declined it. We picked up our checks in the office and drove down to the Libertyville branch of Pittsburgh Savings and Loan and cashed them. I dumped most of mine into my savings account, put fifty into my checking account (just having one of those made me feel disquietingly adultâthe feeling, I suppose, wears off), and held onto twenty in cash.
Arnie drew all of his in cash.
âHere,â he said, holding out a ten-spot.
âNo,â I said. âYou hang onto it, man. Youâll need every penny of it before youâre through with that clunk.â
âTake it,â he said. âI pay my debts, Dennis.â
âKeep it. Really.â
âTake it.â He held the money out inexorably.
I took it. But I made him take out the dollar he had coming back. He didnât want to do that.
Driving across town to LeBayâs tract house, Arnie got more jittery, playing the radio too loud, beating boogie riffs first on his thighs and then on the dashboard. Foreigner came on, singing âDirty White Boy.â
âStory of my life, Arnie my man,â I said, and he laughed too loud and too long.
He was acting like a man waiting for his wife to have a baby. At last I guessed he was scared LeBay had sold the car out from under him.
âArnie,â I said, âstay cool. Itâll be there.â
âIâm cool, Iâm cool,â he said, and offered me a large, glowing, false smile. His complexion that day was the worst I ever saw it, and I wondered (not for the first time, or the last) what it must be like to be Arnie Cunningham, trapped behind that oozing face from second to second and minute to minute and . . .
âWell, just stop sweating. You act like youâre going to make lemonade in your pants before we get there.â
âIâm not,â he said, and beat another quick, nervous riff on the dashboard just to show me how nervous he wasnât. âDirty White Boyâ by Foreigner gave way to âJukebox Heroesâ by Foreigner. It was Friday afternoon, and the Block Party Weekend had started on FM-104. When I look back on that year, my senior year, it seems to me that I could measure it out in blocks of rock . . . and an escalating, dreamlike sense of terror.
âWhat exactly is it?â I asked. âWhat is it about this car?â
He sat looking out at Libertyville Avenue without saying anything for a long time, and then he turned off the radio with a quick snap, cutting off Foreigner in mid-flight.
âI donât know exactly,â he said. âMaybe itâs because for the first time since I was eleven and started getting pimples, Iâve seen something even uglier than I am. Is