disease.”
“You're telling me that the cure is to contract another disease?”
“Yes.”
Fuck me.
Apparently, that was the answer.
CHAPTER TWO
The nightly news these days was an endless stream of horrible diseases and their imminent devastation on the human race. Potential pandemics sprouted like weeds. If a week went by and you didn't hear about some obscure deadly disease outbreak, you knew you were dreaming. Earth was a global community now. Every bus terminal, train station, and airport promised quick passage for an ambitious contagion.
Watching the news too much would make you crazy. Make you want to live in a shack on the side of a mountain. Your only friend a bear named Ben. Your only grocery store the local Hole Foods. As in, go dig a hole and eat whatever bugs you find.
No thanks.
“Some cures are essentially no different than the disease they seek to overcome.”
I froze. A terrible thought hit me.
“Is your disease, your cure, communicable?”
He tugged his chin as uncertainty flickered in his eyes—the first I’d seen since meeting him.
Not a good sign.
“I don't know. I've tested blood to blood transmission. I’ve tested bodily fluids transmission. I've tested aerosol transmission. The results were inconclusive.”
I gripped the arms of the chair, my knuckles white with strain. Cold fear gripped my spine. Hot anger burned my belly.
“You brought me up here to infect me? You didn’t even think to give me a choice?”
I thought of the single option in the closet. Of all the forms I was forced to sign. Of possibly already being infected with his disease-cure.
“You have no right to make decisions about my life! Who do you think you are?”
He knelt at my side again, his head hardly lower than mine. He really was far larger than any normal human. He was far more gorgeous too.
I tried not to think about that.
His eyes stroked me, like soft fingertips in the dark.
“I’m the only person that can help you.”
I wished he were wrong. I wished I had one single other hope.
On her deathbed, my mother’s last words were a prophecy for my life.
Coraline, if you wish in one hand and shit in the other, which do you think fills up faster?
She passed as the last word left her lips. She had a country kind of wisdom.
Noah leaned toward me. The magnetism of our bodies warped the fabric of space between us. He cupped my cheek.
“You’ve had a long, hard day. One that started on another world. I know it's too much in the moment.” He brushed my cheek. “Get a good night’s sleep and perhaps an answer will be clear in the morning.”
I wanted to shout at him that the answer would never be clear. That nothing was simple in life. That shit weighed more than wishes. I wanted to tell him he was crazy and I didn't appreciate him making me the same.
But his eyes.
They smoldered and warmed me. My heart throbbed in my throat. Electric tingles crawled across my scalp and dove down my spine. I yearned to be his. To be his in every possible way. To crush my flesh into his. To open my soul and be filled by him.
I needed him inside me.
That was the short of it. The need was deep and primal. It had no regard for the confusion of higher thinking.
What a bother!
I longed to surrender. The depth of my need was terrifying.
The air between us crackled with an almost visible energy. A fierce wormhole that threatened to suck us both into the oblivion of total ecstasy.
A sting in my chest reminded me I hadn't breathed in too long. I sucked in a choking gob of oxygen and the sting subsided.
I needed distance.
I needed half a minute to clear my head and fumble for coherent thinking. I tried to speak but the words came out garbled. I cleared my throat and tried again.
“Yes, you're right. I don't know what to think. About this. About us. I've never been so unsure of anything.”
He slid his hand around to the back of my neck. He leaned closer and his lips caressed mine.
OMG.
Raw,