we’ll get a tent and just stay all
night, and see how many times we can have sex before we’re completely exhausted.”
I laughed, shaking my head.
“We can do that anywhere. We could do that in the
dorms.”
“Yeah, but then you’d have to worry about who was
listening, who was hearing me make you go ‘Oh, Johnny—oh, god, please, yes, yes
Johnny, right there…’” He nibbled along my neck, and I gasped, the sound
dissolving into a giggle at his teasing.
“Okay, so maybe the woods are good for something,” I
admitted. Johnny’s hands wandered all over me, touching and caressing, and I
melted against him, letting him do whatever he liked, staring at the fire as
the orange-yellow-red flames licked and arched out to meet the air. Johnny
slipped a hand between my legs, stroking me and I felt my body heating up
again, my pussy tightening as he rubbed my clit, almost more playful than
meaningful.
He played with me for a few minutes, his fingers
working me until I was on the edge—not quite fully aroused, but my heart
beating a little faster, my nerves tingling. He backed off, kissing the side of
my neck, and went back to just caressing me, cupping my breasts, exploring my
body as if he had never had a toy so nice in his life. “I feel like I was away
for way longer,” he mused, brushing a lock of my hair away from my neck and
holding my body close to his while we both watched the fire. “How are things
going for you this week? Finding your classes more easily?” I grinned,
remembering the chance encounters that had brought me to Johnny’s attention.
I told him about my classes, about how I was having
trouble focusing—jokingly telling him that all I could think about when we were
busy discussing the early American writers was how much I would prefer to be in
bed with him. Johnny told me more about the away game, about his teammates and
the guys in his frat. As I lost the hazy glow of orgasm, I remembered what the
girl in the dining hall had said, and what she had taunted me with again.
“Hey, there was this girl I saw flirting with you the
other day,” I started, biting my bottom lip. Johnny tensed slightly against me.
“I hope you’re not jealous—I can’t even see anyone
else now that I have you,” he told me, kissing my neck again.
“No, no it’s not that,” I said quickly. “I mean my
first day orientation, the RA for my floor went on about how boys weren’t
allowed during quiet hours, even if it was you.” I laughed. “I’m not going to
yell at you because you’re hot and talented and girls want to be with
you—that’s not something you can control.” Johnny relaxed against me and I fell
silent for a moment, thinking of just how to go about saying what it was that
was weighing on my mind.
“The thing is, a few days later, she came up to me in
the dining hall.” I told Johnny about what the girl had said. “Who’s Claire
White?” I finally asked, feeling my heart beating faster and faster in my
chest. “All I could find out was that she committed suicide.” Johnny sat up on
the blanket, staring into the fire, a chilled look coming over his face.
“She…” he sighed. “She was my girlfriend, the last
year I was in high school.” He licked his lips and frowned. “I cared about her
a lot—I loved her. She was my first.” Johnny blushed slightly in the firelight.
“But she had a lot of problems.”
“That tends to go along with being suicidal, I guess,”
I said quietly, knowing that I needed to say something. Johnny shrugged, the
haunted look still on his face.
“She loved me, and I loved her, but there was just
nothing I could do…” he swallowed. “A lot of people still blame me for her
dying, and I kind of get that; but she was going through a lot of stuff. Bad
shit, you know? She couldn’t handle it, and I couldn’t save her.” He turned
towards me again, smiling slightly. “I don’t… can we not talk about it?” I hesitated, but nodded. It was
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