again.
Sheâs doing the exact same jumps, right after I land them. I do an axel, she does an axel. I squeak out the landing of a double flipâdouble toe loop combinationâtwo jumps, oneright after the otherâand she does the same thing perfectly.
The little hairs on my arms rise. It feels like sheâs following me, copying me. As if weâre in a competition and sheâs trying to show judgesâor maybe just meâthat she can do everything better.
I donât have anything to prove to her. I know Iâm a good skater, never mind what the last judges thought. I push across the rink and move on to spins. I lower myself into a back sit spin, rotating on my right leg with my left leg extended in front and my rear end just inches from the ice. Addison does the exact same thing. Iâm spinning so fast that everythingâs a little blurry, but it looks like she just twisted her body into a pretzel-like position Iâve never seen before.
How did she do that? I whip my head around so I can see her again, forgetting that it will slow my spin. I lose the careful balance on my blade and it shoots out from underneath me, leaving me spinning on my behind.
Addison pulls up from her twisted sitting position and finishes with a fast upright spin. She glides over to me and smirks. âNice butt spin.â
I open my mouth to say something back, but then I shut it. Itâs only my second day here. I canât be rude to people, even if theyâre rude to me. I search for something nice to say.
âThanks. Iâve been working on it,â is all I can come up with. It sounds like one of Dadâs jokes.
She doesnât laugh. Instead she squats next to me. Her hairline shows brown roots, and I try not to stare at it. Her mom lets her dye her hair? Mine wonât even let me wear makeup unless Iâm performing.
She narrows her brown eyes. âYour double toe was under-rotated. You donât turn fast enough after you take off. Thatâs why you could barely land it.â
My face burns. Who does this girl think she is? A coach? I scramble to get up from the ice. She rises gracefully and looks me in the eye.
âYou wonât ever get past Juvenile with an under-rotated double toe.â
I clench my gloved hands into fists at my sides. How does she even know what level Iâm on? I donât remember seeing her at competitions. I wish she would just go away.
And she does. With one last smirk, she turns and pushes off across the rink. I glance around, sure I have an audience. But, just as before, everyone is busy with their own practices.
Greg calls my name. I force myself to take a couple of deep breaths as I move my feet to start my lesson.
I show Greg my arsenal of jumps and spins. I try a few triple salchows and fall on each one.
He reaches out a hand to help me up after the third one. âThatâs a good start. This is a jump you have to master, though, if you want to move on. Triple sal was the minimum required jump to be cast in the Skating Sensation.â
Since the Skating Sensation doesnât even exist anymore, I donât think Iâll be trying out for it anytime soon. âIâve only been working on it for a couple of months,â I say.
âYou donât need it until next year, so youâve got time. Did you bring your music? I want to see your program.â
I grab my CD and give it to the ice monitor. As I glide toward center ice, my throat goes dry. I want Greg to see me as the girl who could win Regionals, the one whoâs got Olympic potential. Not the girl who almost placed last at Praterville. Momâs always saying first impressions are the most important, and I want Greg to have the right first impression of me. Skating my full Âprogramâperfectlyâis a chance to show him what Iâve got.
I arch my arms over my head and lean slightly to the right. Addisonâs watching me even as she runs through
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