elevator and pressed the button for the first floor. When I got to the bottom, I walked out and headed toward my campus. It was only about a block or two away. I was soon back at my apartment, ready to face the music and to hear what Natalie had to say about my bad decision.
Chase
After Lila left, I got up. I tried to get my sorry ass up to say goodbye to her, but it was too hard. I didn’t want to scare her off. I knew things were going to be awkward between us. I mean, hell, I fucked her on the second date. I mean, I don’t mind the fact that I went there. Most women expect me to, but I wanted this to mean something more than just sex. I wanted it to be real, like I actually did give a damn about her. Instead, I probably looked like a douche who used her for nothing but sex. She wasn’t that kind of girl. I felt like an idiot. I seriously didn’t know what to think about myself.
“Why did I do that?” I groaned. I knew the obvious answer was that I let her hot body and moves get the best of me. Sex had almost been my downfall. It took over my mind and made me think it was the smart thing to do. Instead of realizing that I should wait with Lila, I took advantage of her inebriated state. A couple of things still surprised me.
The first thing was the obvious one. I was shocked she didn’t run away or try to hit me the minute she woke up. I could feel her eyes on me when the door shut. I knew that she was looking at me. I expected her to at least try to talk to me about these things. I wanted to find out why.
Second, I was shocked that she got up and left without asking questions. I thought for sure she would try to wake me up and ask me what last night meant. I was a bit worried about what it meant as well. I mean, I wanted her in a way like no other. But I didn’t want to rush things either. There was so much rolling around in my head that I didn’t understand. As sleep cleared, I wondered what I should do.
Should I try to text her? Was that the best thing to do at this point?
I wanted to talk to her, to apologize for my behavior. She probably wanted to have a bit of time alone. I put my phone away. We probably shouldn’t talk about this right now.
I sat down on the bed and sighed. I wanted to talk to her so much. At the same time, I wanted to keep things in check. Damn, I’m losing my mind. Deep down, I knew nothing would stop me from having her.
Lila
I made it home in record time. When I opened the door, Natalie was in the living room watching TV. When she saw me, she immediately turned it off and smiled.
“So…how did it go?” she asked.
There was a small cat-like expression on her face, like she was studying a mouse and waiting for it to twitch. I knew there was no use hiding it. She would find out one way or another that I’d had sex with him. If I lied, she would nag the truth out of me.
“It was good. Really good.” I refused to tell her right away. She looked at me like a little kid who found out that there was a surprise waiting for them at home.
“So what did you do?”
“Well, we went out to dinner at this really nice restaurant and I was having a great time. Then we went to a club and things got a tiny bit out of hand. I got drunk and then… things happened,” I replied. I didn’t want to tell her about having sex with him just yet. She could find out about that on her own.
“What do you mean… things happened? When you walked in, you were glowing. I thought that you had sex with him. I’d be a little surprised, but, damn…” I got a bit nervous at her searching expression. After that, I kept quiet while she continued to gush for a while.
I knew she continued to think about it, then turned to me and gaped. I blushed a little bit and she immediately grinned.
“Oh my God, you did!”
I could feel my face turn crimson. Her smile widened and she started nodding like she was a little kid who just discovered what her parents were getting her for
Larry Schweikart, Michael Allen