was carrying his child, and he hadnât stopped smiling since the doctor told them. Not even when Shannon had refused to let him see her home, opting to take the El instead. Not even when heâd leaned over and pressed a big, wet kiss on the doormanâs cheek, only to have the fellow stare at him as though heâd just been released from a mental institution.
Nothing could dampen his spirits tonight. Nothing.
He was going to be a daddyâon Fatherâs Day, no less. He couldnât wait.
Eight more months seemed like an eternity, but he was looking forward to each and every one of them. Spent in Shannonâs company, of course, knowing theyâd made a baby together.
With the help of medical science, maybe, but theyâd still created a life.
Whistling the tune of the only lullaby he knew, he made his way into the kitchen and opened the fridge, looking for something quick and easy to fix for dinner. Normally, he would have dined out or had his secretary arrange for something to be brought in.
But Margaret had long since gone home, and he didnât much feel like making pleasantries with the colleagues he was bound to bump into at one of his favorite clubs.
The only person he really wanted to see was Shannon.
Unfortunately, sheâd made it more than clear that she wasnât interested in spending time with him outside of her contractual obligation.
He offered to drive her home or anywhere else she needed to go, but she refused. He invited her to dinner, but she turned him down in favor of studying or waiting tables at The Tavern. It didnât take Burke long to realize she was trying to avoid him anywhere but at Dr. Coxâs office.
Which was no more than he should expect. Their relationship was based on a business deal, nothing more. Sheâd agreed to carry his child; she didnât need to be his dinner companion as well.
But darned if he didnât wish she would accept even one of his invitations. Give him an excuse to spend just a little more time with her.
And, frankly, there was no one else he could share his news with. No one other than Shannon, Dr. Cox and perhaps Margaret.
His smile slipped a fraction as he threw a pack of low-fat luncheon meat on the counter, along with a loaf of bread, a head of lettuce and mayonnaise. Thank God for Margaret. She not only kept his office running smoothly, but stopped by his apartment once a week, too, to restock his refrigerator. Otherwise, this lettuce wouldnât look nearly as fresh and crispâif he owned lettuce at all.
This wasnât the first time heâd been struck by the knowledge that he had no family left, and no true friends. Not that his family had been so great to begin with. His parents had spent years in a loveless, contentious marriage. Burke had been a lonely, often ignored only child, many times suspecting heâd been an unplanned and unwelcome addition to that hostile relationship.
But both of his parents were now gone. His father had been killed in a car accident some fifteen years earlier, and his mother had mourned the loss for all of six weeks before finding herself another husband to harangue, eventually succumbing to cirrhosis of the liver from too many bottles of cheap wine.
Except for a college buddy or two whom he kept in touch with, he didnât really have any friends, either. Acquaintances stopped by the office or called every couple of weeks to ask him for money, but he wouldnât consider any of them actual friends.
Everyone wanted something from Burke Ellison Bishop, he thought as he took a giant bite of his ham sandwich.
Even Shannon was using him for her own benefit. But at least with her, he would be getting something in return. And that something was the one thing heâd always wantedâa child of his own.
And that little boy or girl would be his chance to show that he could be a better parent than his had been to him. A chance to love and be loved. To reclaim a