wasn’t even honest.
“Parade, I’m serious. I know it’s fucked up, but when I heard that you was gettin’ married today it blew me . I just didn’t know who it was wit’ But I’m bein’ real wit’ you. I want you back.”
“Hold up, what you mean when you heard today I was gettin’ married?” I pushed the water cup from in front of me.
“I asked Daffany to get you out here for me.” He sat back in the chair.
“What?! This was a set up? That bitch was neva comin’?”
“No. She did it cuase I paid her.”
“Fuck this shit!” I yelled, getting up reaching for my purse. “I’m outta here.”
I saw Jay drop a one hundred dollar bill on the table and run behind me. Once at my car he pushed me up against it. The back of my shirt was raised slightly and I felt the cold car against my skin.
“Stop playin’ games with me, Parade! You gonna have me kill this muvfuka’ for gettin’ in my way! Plus you still love me.”
“Still love you! Neva that!” I screamed unable to look at him or push him away. His presence made me weak.
“Stop bullshitin’ wit’ ya self, Shawty!? You was on my nuts way before I even knew you were alive!”
I smacked the fuck out of him and he grabbed my hands, pulled me to him and kissed my lips. We probably looked like freaks outside in the parking lot on my car. I ran my fingers through his hair and his hands moved up my blouse. My nipples became erect in his hands.
“Tell me you don’t want me and I’ll go,” He passionately kissed my neck.
“I can’t do that because I do want you.”
“Leave that nigga, Parade. Leave his ass.”
“I…I….don’t know.” I told him in between his kisses. I want him so bad right now I can’t hardly think about my loyalty to Smokes. “Hold on,” I told him. “Let’s get in the car. I don’t want anybody he knows seeing me out here.”
We moved inside and went at it in the backseat like we hadn’t had sex in years. He was just about to satisfy my desires despite me just being with my fiancé until I saw my self in my rearview mirror. What am I doing? I have a chance at life and I’m getting ready to mess it up for a fuck in the back seat of a car! Just a few months back I was dirty old Parade Knight. Now I’m sexy ass Parade! I don’t want to lose everything I have. I can’t see it. Jay had his chance with me and he ruined it. And as far as I was concerned, anything that we had together was over.
“Jay,” I said in between his lips covering mine. “J…J…Jay.”
“Yes, baby?” he said softly kissing my face while his hands found their home on my breasts.
“Stop.”
“What?” he continued groping me.
“Stop…please,” I told him backing away. “I’m in love and can’t do this to Smokes. You gotta go and you gotta go now.”
He stopped. Although he was frustrated he looked at me with disappointment and love. “Parade, I’m wrong. I know this ain’t even you no more, but I do care about you. And I wasn’t tryin’ to parkin’ lot pimp you either. I just didn’t know when I was goin’see you again. I got anxious and start thinkin’ wit’ my dick. My bad. But one day you’re goin’ have to face the fact that you care about me too. I just hope it ain’t too late.”
With that he left the car, and left me alone. I couldn’t help but wonder. Were his words true?
Miss Wayne
Six Months Later
Listen to this shit. Smokes has this little girl he calls his play sister named Sweets hangin’ around him and Miss Parade ever since they got together. Anytime a man calls a girl play anything I think they’re, fuckin’ ‘em. And nine times out of ten they are.
Any who, this chick follows Miss Parade around everywhere, even when Miss Parade doesn’t want her to. I thinks she a little spy bitch cause she does everything Smokes tells her too including picking out Miss Parades outfits. This brings me to my dilemma of the day. How can I move this bitch out of the way to help Miss Parade buy the proper wedding gown?
Skye Malone, Megan Joel Peterson