his face all painted, his clothes those worn three hundred years ago. But his hair was blond, his facial coloring fair. The picture was titled The First Blue-Eyed Mohawk .
Itâs not just hair and skin and clothing. Thereâs a way people hold themselves and talk and behave that makes it clear who they really are, what nation they hold in their hearts. Thereâs something about that one there that freaks me out. His hair, the way heâs dressed, everything about him seems unreal. Like itâs all a disguise. Heâs pretending to be something that he is not. Not just pretending to be Indian. Pretendingâ¦to be human.
Heâs studying the crowd of us. Watching us the way a mountain lion might eye a herd ofdeer from a place of concealment. Iâm so short that I donât think he can see me. Then he suddenly turns his head. His eyes catch mine; I canât look away. A little smile curls his lips.
âI am doomed!â someone behind me declares. âMy life is over!â
I quickly turn my head away to look behind me.
Itâs Willy Donner. Heâs holding his cell phone and frantically tapping away at its keys. He holds it up again. âLook,â he says, his voice as tragic as that of a shipwrecked sailor. âNo signal!â
âCell phones do not work here,â a know-it-all voice intones. âNo towers in these mountains.â Itâs the square-built man in the khaki uniform. Heâs close enough now for me to make out the name tag on his chest.
MR . MACK , CAMP DIRECTOR , it reads.
âSo you wonât mind handing them over,â Mr. Wilbur adds. He has a box full of manila envelopes in his hand. âWrite your name on the envelope, put the cell phone into it, seal the envelope, and hand it back.â He pauses and holds up his finger. âAlso any other electronic devices. IPods, Game Boys, whatever. You are all officially now unplugged.â
Mr. Mack and his assistant counselors go around collecting the electronic devices. Thereâs a lot of them. Enough bulging envelopes to fill a big cardboard letter file box. Thereâs some grumbling, of course, but everyone gives up their gadgets except for me. I just donât own any of that stuff, especially not a cell phone. Grama Kateri firmly believes they cause brain cancer. Mom agrees with her. So thereâs no one Iâd be calling on one.
While the electronic toys are being collected, I sneak a wary glance back toward the EAGLEâS NEST sign. Thereâs no longer anyone leaning against the wall. How could someone vanish that fast? Was he just a figment of my overactive imagination? But even if he wasnât real, in the conventional sense of things, I am certain that I had a vision of something threatening.
5
Journal Time
I âm sitting in my bunk now. We have an hour for journal time. Find a quiet place. Write down your impressions of your camping experience thus far. The boysâ cabin is about as quiet as it can get because no one else is in here. That is muy cool by me.
You might think Iâd be out exploring the woods, looking for signs of animals, communing with nature. After all, Iâm an Indian. Isnât that what we are supposed to do? Not. I try to avoid those stereotypes about Native Americans that the other kids and even some of my teachers seem to have. I never wear any Indian jewelry or moccasins. (You can bet I have never mentioned the regalia stored at Grama Kateriâs that I used to wear when Mom took me to dance at powwows.) I keep my hair shortâa Marine-style haircut. I canât do anything about my skin color or my features, butmost non-Indians donât see you as a real Indian unless youâre dressed for the part. Sneak under the radar. Fade into the background as much as possible.
Even so, under other circumstances, I really would have been out in the forest like a shot as soon as I was given the chance. Stereotypes be danged. But
Catherine Gilbert Murdock