start to finish, stopping to
change something that had worked in the studio but didn’t really come across
“live,” or to change a solo here or there, or to jam out a bit. We took a break
before we had to get into the older songs, to try and decide which ones we were
going to keep on the set list.
I stepped outside the rehearsal space and got my phone out
of my pocket, along with my cigarettes and lighter. I figured that hopefully by
then, Olivia had managed to make it back to her place; it would be a decent
time to text her. Hey—that was some disappearing act this morning.
Everything okay? I felt like a fucking idiot when I sent it; something in
the back of my head told me that the reason Olivia had left before I woke up
was that she’d regretted going to bed with me in the first place. But why would
that even be an issue? She’d had a good time—I was sure of it.
A few seconds later, my phone vibrated in my pocket. I
flicked ash off the end of my cigarette and slipped my phone out to see if it
was Olivia. It was. I had to go into the office. Editor wanted the interview
ASAP, so I thought it’d be best to work from there. I rolled my eyes; it
was a good excuse, but it felt like just that—an excuse.
I’d like to see you again. I mean…if you had a shitty
time then I get it, I won’t bug you. But if you had a good time… God, I
sounded like I was in high school again. I couldn’t think of a better way to
say what I wanted to say; I sent it even though it sounded like some pathetic
dude who never got laid.
I went back into the rehearsal space and threw myself into
work, pushing Olivia to the back of my mind. My phone buzzed in my pocket at
one point but I made myself ignore it; I wasn’t going to be like those chicks
that stared at their phones waiting for an answer, fingers itchy to send
another message. I’d just get around to it when there was another break. We
started discussing which of the songs we wanted to be on the core set list—the
songs we played every show—and which we’d keep on the secondary list to have
something to change things up. The tour was going to be pretty long; it would
drive us all crazy to play all the exact same songs every single night of it.
“Crack some beers,” Jules said when we’d all decided we’d
had enough for the afternoon. We might do a little more practice in the
evening, but Alex wanted to spend some time with Mary since he knew we’d be
leaving on tour in a couple of weeks.
I threw myself onto the couch and opened my pack of
cigarettes; I’d need to stop by the Circle K on the way home and get another—I
was down to four. Mark handed me a beer on his way to the enormous beanbag
chair on the other side of the couch, and I raised it in the air as I lit my
cigarette and took the first drag of the smoke. I slipped my phone out of my
pocket and finally—finally—checked my messages.
It’s not that I had a bad time or anything. I just…you
have a reputation, Nick. You have to admit that about yourself. I like you and
the sex was amazing but I’m not sure how much I want to trust you. I
frowned at my screen and took a quick sip of my beer. For the first time in my
life, the fact that I slept with women freely was truly biting me in the ass.
Olivia wasn’t trying to get me to ‘change my ways’ or convince me that she was
woman enough to keep me from wanting anyone else; she was actually pushing me
away.
“Hey,” I said, holding my hand up to stop Alex before he
left. “Didn’t Record Spin say they wanted to arrange a tour journal with
us?” It had been something that Ron had brought up before Olivia had even
interviewed us.
“Yeah,” Alex said, nodding. He looked at me for a moment and
then started grinning. “Oh man. You want to bring that girl on tour.”
“Nicky got bit, man,” Jules said from the beat-up wingback
chair he’d thrown himself into. “He’s chasing that tail.”
“You guys liked working with her yesterday,” I