exclusive as a siren was, he’d been fantastic. He’d taken her on dates and bought her flowers whenever he was ready to get laid.
She also suspected that if she hinted at wanting more, he would possibly be willing to give it. He was an attentive lover, good enough to make her come a few times a night when she really needed that extra juice in her siren tank.
But she hated the guilt eating her alive. Because she didn’t want Blue. Not even a little. She’d tried letting him know that about two months into their relationship, and had tried in her sad, pathetic way to break things off. But he had promised that he didn’t want or expect much, and that if all she needed was a fuck buddy, he was happy to be that for her. Rather than being firm and sticking to her guns, she had allowed her siren’s needs to get the better of her.
But Blue wasn’t what she wanted, and their casual arrangement made her feel like shit. Having meaningless sex with different partners because her siren nature demanded it was one thing. But having meaningless sex with the same partner night after night had begun to make her feel worse than awful.
Each night before bed, the only thing she thought of were intense blue eyes and a rugged, masculine profile that made her heart race. When she was in bed with Blue, more often than not, it was the image of August coming that finally tipped her over the edge and nothing that Blue did. Which was really sad, and something she doubted would make Blue happy to hear.
After that one night between them, August had started treating her differently. He wasn’t cold anymore or even distant. But a wall still stood between them.
Whenever Blue would come around, August would make himself scarce. So she knew she wasn’t the only one pining away, but August was rigid in his belief that he knew what was best for them.
And maybe he was right. She was so into him that if he even gave her the tiniest whiff of interest, she would be wet and ready. Which was all sorts of tragic. Jackson hated admitting it, even to herself, but August staying away was the smart thing. Because as the day approached for his mating ritual, she knew that if they’d been lovers, she would never have been able to handle seeing him want and need and chase after another woman.
It would kill her. Just the thought of him with another woman made her heart ache. She rubbed at her chest idly.
It was time to move on, both figuratively and literally. Jackson was pretty sure that once August went through his ritual, she would leave. She would have to move somewhere, anywhere... she would just have to get far away from him and whoever Ms. Right wound up being.
She sighed, and Blue looked at her from the corner of his eyes. Inhaling deeply, he reached over, grabbed the remote, and turned off the TV. And she shrunk back into the couch because she knew.
Blue couldn’t read her thoughts, but he was an ancient fae. He’d been around long enough that he was no one’s fool. Blowing out a heavy breath, he palmed his legs, rubbing his thighs in an agitated manner.
Blue had hinted at wanting more a few weeks prior. He’d wanted her to move in. She didn’t for a second believe it had been because he was falling in love with her. More likely, he’d wanted the convenience.
He was a carnal fae, able to match her need tit for tat. He had a banging body and could make her laugh. But it just wasn’t enough anymore.
It wasn’t Blue’s fault that whenever he kissed her—and his kisses were perfectly nice—she couldn’t help but compare them to what August’s had done to her.
August’s kisses had made her feel alive and nuclear all at once. The very atoms of her cells had seemed to spark to life and make her feel like she was both rooted to the ground and flying at the same time.
She felt nothing even close to that with Blue, just lips pressing to lips. He was nice and sexy, but he wasn’t for her.
Twisting toward her, he took her jaw in his and