could get away, thereâs nowhere to go.â
âYes there is,â I assure him. âThereâs the Before.â
âNo.â He shoves his fists into his coat pockets and frowns at me. âThereâs no Before. Itâs gone.â
âAn After, then,â I tell him, and point down the hall to where a door leads to the courtyard, past the post, over the wall, and beyond. âTo whateverâs out there.â
âThereâs nothing out there for you,â he says bleakly, and shakes his head. âItâs too much of a risk.â
âStaying here is the biggest risk you could ever take,â I tell him.
âI canâtââ he starts, then breaks off and closes his eyes. âThereâs worse things than the post, Pin.â
âShoe,â I say. âWe get barely enough to eat and hardly any sleep, weâre not permitted to speak, weâre frightened all the time, and we will work here until the day we die.â Now I step closer to him. We are much the same height, and as I lean in to whisper into his ear, my cheek brushes against his,and he flinches. I put my hand on his shoulder to steady him. âWe donât touch,â I breathe. âWe donât kiss. We donât love. How could anything be worse than that?â
He closes his eyes. Then he bends his head, leaning against me, taking comfort. I can feel the tension in his body, the weight of his hand on my arm. I lean into him, giving him warmth for warmth. âCome with me,â I whisper.
âPin . . .â After a long moment, he takes a shuddering breath, as if heâs going to say something else. But he doesnât. He opens his eyes, steps away, and I see that his pale face has turned even paler. âDonât do it. Sheâll find out. Sheâll catch you. Youâll end up . . .â His voice breaks, and he shakes his head.
He really has learned his lesson. âYou donât have to come, Shoe,â I say, trying to keep my voice light even though Iâm far more disappointed than I thought Iâd be.
And I leave him there and go back to the sewing room, where I will stitch and stitch and plan my escape, and Maryaâs, into the Before, or perhaps the After, that waits for me beyond the Godmotherâs fortress walls.
CHAPTER
4
S HOE TRUDGES UP THE STAIRS TO HIS WORKROOM. H E takes off his coat and hangs it on its hook, gives the door a savage kick to close it, and sits down at his bench. The measurements of Pinâs feet are marked neatly on the piece of paper heâs left there.
Pin. She is braver than he is, with her plan to escape. She has no way of knowing what is outside, beyond the walls of the fortress. Even if she manages to get over the wall, the Godmother will track her, and catch her. Then it will be Pin chained to the post, feeling the icy wind on her bare skin, and the deep bite and burn as the whip slashes into her back.
On the day he was flogged, the guards left him chained to the post until the sky turned black with night. Heâd gotten so cold that the blood from the lashes heâd been given hadfrozen on his back. The cold hadnât been enough to numb the pain, though. He hunches his shoulders and presses the heels of his hands over his eyes, trying to put that memory back into the past, where it belongs.
Taking a shaky breath and opening his eyes, he stares down at Pinâs measurements. A very neat foot, she has, and cold, he imagines, on the stone floors of the fortress.
Outside, winter is coming.
He has glass slippers to make for the Godmotherâand fur ones, just in case. He picks up his tools and gets to work.
S OMETHING PERHAPS ONLY a Seamstressâeven a poor one like meâwould know is that even though silk is light and lovely and flows as smooth as moonbeams over the skin, it is a very strong material. It is good for making ball gowns, and it is good for making ropes.
In the sewing room, I