to Lloyd , she reminded herself. She and Sammy and her boppli wouldnât have to hide in an outbuilding as they had on nights when Lloyd had gone on a drunken rampage. Sheâd seen Joshua with his late wife, and heâd been an attentive husband. When Lloyd had teased him about doing a womanâs work after Joshua brought extra lemonade out to the porch for them to enjoy, Joshua had laughed away his words.
But he doesnât love you. This is little more than a business arrangement.
She hoped none of her thoughts were visible as she affixed a smile in place and went with Leah and Esther to the bench facing the menâs. As they sat so the service could begin, Sammy waved to her from where he perched next to Mamm . She smiled at him, a sincere smile this time. She was doing this for him. There was no price too high to give him a safe home.
Squaring her shoulders, she prepared herself to speak the words that would tie her life to Joshua Stoltzfusâs for the rest of their lives.
* * *
Joshua put a hand on his younger sonâs shoulder. Levi always had a tough time sitting still, but the boy wiggled more every second as the long service went on. Usually Levi sat with the unmarried men and boys, where his squirming wasnât a problem. Maybe Joshua shouldnât have asked him to be one of his Newehockers , but Levi would have been hurt if Timothy had been asked and he hadnât.
He smiled his approval at Levi when the boy stopped shifting around on the bench. He meant to look at Reuben Lapp, their bishop who was preaching about the usual wedding service verses from the seventh chapter of the Book of Corinthians. His gaze went to Rebekah, who sat with her head slightly bowed.
Her red hair seemed to catch fire in the sunshine. A faint smile tipped the corners of her mouth, and he thought of how her eyes sparkled when she laughed. Were they bright with silver sparks now?
Heâd almost forgotten how to breathe when heâd seen her walk into the room. This beautiful woman would be his wife. Even though tomorrow she would return to wearing black for the rest of her year of mourning for Lloyd, the rich blue of her dress beneath her white apron banished the darkness of her grief from her face. He felt blessed that sheâd agreed to become his wife.
Joshua shook that thought out of his head. He was no lovesick young man who had won the heart of the girl heâd dreamed of marrying. Instead of letting his mind wander away on such thoughts, he should be listening to Reuben.
At the end of the sermon, the bishop said, âAs we are gathered here to witness this marriage, it would seem there canât be any objections to it.â
Beside Joshua, his oldest mumbled, âAs if that would do any gut .â
Joshua glanced at Timothy. His son hadnât voiced any protests about the marriage plans in the weeks since Joshua had told his kinder Rebekah was to be his wife. Why now?
âLet the two who wish to marry come forward,â Reuben said, saving Joshua from having to point out that Timothy could have raised his concerns earlier.
Or was his son taking the opportunity to be unpleasant, as heâd often been since heâd turned sixteen? Now was not the time to try to figure that out. Now was the time to do what was right for his kinder and Rebekahâs while he fulfilled his promise to his best friend.
Joshua stood and watched as Rebekah did the same a bit more slowly. When he held out his hand to her, she took it. Relief rushed through him because heâd been unsure if she would. He should say something to her, but what? Danki? That wasnât what a bridegroom said to his future wife as they prepared to exchange vows.
He led her to Reuben, who smiled warmly at them. Joshua released Rebekahâs hand and felt strangely alone. Of the more than two hundred people in the room, she was the only one who knew the truth of why they were getting married. He was glad theyâd