concerned about her.â
Her? They must be talking about me!
âOh yeah? You want me to stay home more, but what about you? Maybe itâs my turn to have a life finally.â
âI just think she shouldnât be alone so much. Itâs not right.â
âItâs a little late to worry about that, donât you think? Ten more months, and she could be living on her own. I have to have something in place for myself, and Iâm not going to get an opportunity like this again.â
I step into the kitchen. Mom is standing at the stove, wooden spoon poised in the air like a conductorâs baton. Dad is across the room from her, holding a mug. Their backs are to the door.
âWhatâs going on?â I ask.
They swing around to look at me, embarrassed. They glance at each other. âItâs nothing,â Mom says, turning back to the pot on the stove.
âSounds like something to me.â
âHow was school?â Dad asks.
âWere you talking about me?â I ask.
Dad sighs. âYes, we were.â
I see my mom glance sharply at him.
âWhat were you saying?â
âI was saying Iâm a little concerned that youâre alone so much now that your momâs working nights.â He looks back at her, but I canât read his expression.
âIâm seventeen, Dad, not seven. And Iâm fine. Better than fine.â
âI donât see you hanging out with any friends.â
âI made two new friends today, as a matter of fact.â
He smiles, but itâs forced. âThatâs good.â
âDo you want me to hang out at the mall or, even better, at the park, drinking and doing drugs?â
âNo, of course not, but you need to have some fun.â
âIâm having fun. Dance is fun. I donât have time for hanging out.â
He nods. âOkay, Legs.â But I know he doesnât buy it. He thinks Iâm a geek who canât make friends. The truth is, I havenât had time for them. Between music and dance and school, itâs all I can do to keep up. Athough I do hang out with Angela between dance classes.
âIâm going to my room to study.â
âHow âbout we go to a movie tonight?â he asks.
âCanât. Dance class.â
âTomorrow night?â
âDad, I dance every night except Saturday, Sunday and Monday.â
âAnd now youâre dancing at school too?â
I nod.
âThen maybe you could skip the odd evening class when Iâm at home.â
I realize heâs telling me that he wants to spend more time with me. Or maybe heâs just feeling sorry for me. For some reason, tears spring to my eyes. âIâll think about it.â
I leave the kitchen, but I donât go to my room. Instead I go down the stairs to the music studio. Hearing them argue like thatâabout meâis too weird. Itâs the second time this week Iâve walked in on something. Thereâs so much tension between them.
Momâs harp stands majestically in one corner of the studio. I sit down at the piano and stare at the keys. My right hand rests on them, and I pick out a simple tune. I havenât practiced in six months, maybe more. I completed the academy exams and then quit, cold turkey. The last argument around here was back when Mom wanted me to continue studying. I told her Iâd completed my part of the bargain. I was done with studying music.
My left hand automatically joins my right on the keys, and I find myself playing Griegâs âMorning Mood.â It comes back to me as if Iâd played it just yesterday. I lean into the piano and pound the keys, enjoying the full range of emotion the music triggers. It comes so effortlessly, and for a few minutes I enjoy the sensation, completely losing myself just as I do when I dance.
But then the piece is over. My hands drop to my lap after the last trill.
âThat was beautiful,