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    “Don’t, David. My past lovers are just that—in the past. Right now, it is only you I am with until you decide to let me go.”
    “Don’t you get a choice?” I asked as I took his cock back into my hands. I liked the feel of his extra skin sliding up and down with my fingers. This was really turning me on. I licked around the tip, and I heard him audibly swallow.
    He gasped but still answered my question. “No. There was only one other person in my life who made me feel like you do, and he is dead.”
    That confession made me stop licking my lollipop. “What happened?” I could not stop myself from asking. It was so involuntary. I really should think before I speak.
    “He was killed. And I was powerless to save him.”
    The sadness in his dark eyes pulled me to my feet. I know it was not the best moment to feel sentimental, but I couldn’t help myself. I wrapped my arms around him and held him tight. “I’m sorry. So sorry.” The thought of his pain and anguish over his dead lover hurt me like I did not expect. I felt horrible for him. Even knowing that the other guy could not still be in his life for me to be here, I still hurt for him. Then insanity took over and I could not stop the next words that slipped from my lips. “I love you.”
    Nicholai stiffened. “Don’t say the words unless you mean them.”
    Did I? I thought I did. “No, I do. I do mean them.”
    He leaned back and pushed me away enough to look into my face with his concern. “David, don’t say them out of pity.”
    “No,” I protested, “I’m not. I mean… it’s not like I’ve ever been in love before, so I don’t have anything to compare it to, but I think it’s love. It feels like love.”
    “We don’t have love on my world. Not among the Vampaerii. Violence, hatred, vengeance—these things I know well. So when I met Max, I knew. It was a feeling I can never forget.”
    “He must have been great.” I hated hearing about it, but at the same time I could not stop it from passing between us. Knowing the other person is what makes a relationship work. If I was going to know Nicholai, I needed to hear about his past.
    “Yes… and no. He—Max—put up barriers and would not admit his feelings for me until it was too late.” Nicholai averted his eyes and looked to the floor as he spoke, like it was too painful to admit as he looked at me. “I loved him with every ounce of my being and for the longest time he would not reciprocate my feelings.”
    I cupped his face and made him look at me. “I love you.” I wanted to make sure he heard me—that he knew.
    “Oh, David,” he whispered, “I do love you.” Nicholai crushed my mouth with kisses. So much for tender. He moved me backwards out of the kitchen toward the bedroom and kicked his pants off as we went.
    Just as he had me right where he wanted me, my phone rang. “Shit. Sorry.” I guiltily reached for it and looked at the caller ID. “It’s my friend, Joey. He’s probably wondering if I’m dead in an alley somewhere.”
    “Answer it,” he said as he got comfortable next to me.
    “Hello,” I said as a flipped it open. Joey’s voice was fully of sarcasm and insults. “I’m fine, Joey. Yes, I had a great night.” I was lying on my back so I tilted my head to look into Nicholai’s eyes as I spoke. He in turn touched my face with his hand, running his fingers around my jaw. I almost tossed the phone aside and pushed him over onto his back to ravage him, but then Joey would just call me back and the phone would annoy me some more. I settled on enjoying Nicholai’s touch as I finished the conversation now.
    “No, I don’t think I’ll be there today. Yes, I’m serious. Nicole? Yeah, she’s great. Fuck, yeah, I’m getting laid. Joey? Joey?” I snapped the phone shut, and Nicholai gave me a questioning look. “Joey said ‘All right!’ and hung up.”
    “Ah! Then who is Nicole?”
    “Um.” I knew lying would come back to bite me in the ass.