to walk casually over toââ
âI get it!â he snaps. âWhat are you going to be doing while Iâm bird- watching?â
âIâm going to go off that way.â I point toward the street. âBeyond the wall. Then Iâll circle back and crouch down on the other side, close to you. You can tell me what you see, and Iâll take notes.â
âOh, man,â Shahid moans. âWhy canât we just walk by her and get a closer look at the book?â
âBecause,â I say. âThatâs tooâ¦â
âEasy?â he cuts in.
âNo. Itâs too obvious. What if we canât get a good look at it? We canât keep walking back and forth until we do.â
âFine,â he says in a tone that tells me itâs not fine. He pulls the sunglasses out of his backpack. He opens them and stretches the elastic over his head. He sets the glasses in place, and thereâs an audible snap when he releases the elastic. âOw!â
âDonât forget to fluff your hair,â I tell him.
âRight,â he mumbles. âFluff my hair.â Heâs still mumbling as he stomps away.
âCasual, Shahid,â I call after him. âWandering.â
He surprises me by responding with a rude gesture. Thatâs totally not like him. It reminds me of something, but I canât remember what. I decide itâs not important and set off on my own route to the wall.
Chapter Nine
What appeared to be a low wall from the skater side is a high wall from the other side. Itâs one of those concrete-block retaining walls that separates the ground into two levels. The lower level is the flat surface of a soccer field. Itâs perfect. I can glimpse Shahidâs head above me as I take up my position.
âShahid,â I hiss. âCan you hear me?â
âYesss,â he hisses back.
âCan you see Rachel in the mirror?â
âYesss.â
Iâm so delighted, I could dance a jig. Not that I dance jigs, but if I did, I would.
âExcellent. What is she doing?â
âI donât know.â
âWhat does it look like sheâs doing?â I ask.
He whispers, âIt looks like sheâs staring at my back.â
âWhat?â
âI said ,â he says, âsheâs staring at me.â
This is worrisome. âHas she been doing that the whole time?â
âNo. Before this, she was unpacking art supplies. Paint and stuff.â Thereâs a pause before he adds, âAnd also looking at the sketchbook.â
Iâm delighted again. âDid you see what was in it? Were there drawings of faces?â
âI couldnât tell. There were drawings, butâ¦â He stops. And then he says, âGack.â
âHuh?â
And a girlâs voice says, âExcuse me. I was wonderingâhow long do you think youâll be here?â
âUh,â Shahid stammers. âI canât say for sure. But going by statistics, Iâll be around for another seventy years.â
Thereâs a gap in the conversation, and then the girl laughs. âVery funny. I meant, how long will you be standing in front of this wall?â
âOh. I donât know. I hadnât thought about it.â Even from a distance, I can hear Shahid swallow. âItâs not something I generally do.â
Another space of silence follows. Then the girl asks, âYou donât generally stand in front of walls, or you donât generally think?â
âWalls,â Shahid blurts. âThatâs what I meant. Thinking, I do all the time.â
This seems like the right answer to me, but the girl sounds disappointed. âOh. Thatâs too bad. I find thinking interferes with life.â
âReally?â Shahid squeaks.
âYeah. Thinking gets in the way of the pure experience, you know? The mind can be such a fake place.â
âFake? Butâ¦but,â Shahid