that would also give clues to his identity.â
Livia tried a few more times, but Charlotte remained amiably tight-lipped. Livia gave up. âLook at you. You had a âvery niceâ kissâ
and
youâve got a plan of action for your life. That makes me feel completely aimless.â
âUsually one feels aimless because one isnât sure yet what one wantsâuntil one does, a proper strategy canât be formulated.â Charlotte studied Livia a moment. âBut in your case, itâs possible you know exactly what you want, but youâre afraid to want it, let alone pursue it.â
Livia swallowed. She didnât ask Charlotte what or how she knew; she didnât say anything at all. They walked in silence the rest of the way.
As they approached the house, Livia wrapped her arm around Charlotteâs shoulders. âWhat if everything Papa promised was only to mollify you temporarily? It gives me no pleasure to say this, but our father isnât terribly farsightedâheâd be happy to postpone a problem for another day, let alone another eight years. What if when the time comes, he reneges on his word?â
âI donât know. Not yet, in any caseâIâll have plenty of time to consider my response.â Charlotte took Liviaâs hand in her own. âBut if our father should prove a man of his word and sponsor the necessary education and training for me to earn a living, will you allow me to do the same for you in return?â
Livia squeezed Charlotteâs hand, suddenly close to tears. Charlotte seldom initiated physical contactâthis was as solemn an offer as the queen could make standing in the middle of Westminster Abbey.
âYes,â she said. âYes, please do.â
She allowed herself to be briefly carried away by visions of this impossible future, two sisters, united in a most gratifying independence.Would they have a little cottage? Or a nice, spacious suite of rooms at the girlsâ school that Charlotte would direct? She could see them sipping tea together on Sunday afternoons, Charlotte with a plate of her beloved plum cake in front of her, looking out to a small garden reserved for their private use.
It was a more appealing future than any sheâd imagined yet.
But pessimist that she was, she couldnât let the occasion pass without a word of caution. âRemember, Charlotte, Papa doesnât like women. Heâd feel a lot more hesitation breaking his word to a manâbut you arenât a man.â
âHe had one fiancée who jilted him because of his character flaws. And the woman he married to spite the fiancée dislikes him because he used her with little regard for her feelings. What reason does he have to dislike all women? Does he disdain all men because his father was an ass and his solicitor made a soup of his affairs?â
âBy your standards it isnât rational, I know. But you canât expect to be treated rationally when you are a woman, Charlotte. I canât explain whyâthatâs just how it is. And you must learn to accept it.â
Charlotte was quiet. Livia thought that perhaps for once, sheâd put some sense into her little sisterâs head. But as they walked back into the house, Charlotte turned to her and said, âI will try to understand why. But I will not learn to accept it. Never.â
Livia had long suspected that Sir Henry would not hold to his promise. And yet when it happened, when he broke his pledge, she was far angrier than her sister.
âItâs unconscionable, what he did. To lie to you so baldly, to ask you to act in good faith when he hadnât the slightest intention of upholding his end of the bargainââ She sputtered, unable to go on.
Charlotte sat at the edge of their bed, the slow tapping of her fingertips on the bedpost the only sign of her agitation.
After a long minute, Charlotte said, âMy timing was less