uncontrollably in her sleep. It
took me awhile to calm her enough for her to realize we
were safe.
The turmoil of our journey plagued her. Last night
she dreamed we were back on the beach where Kayla tried
to seduce me. The slave girl had pretended to sleep with me
so that Qonchita would desert me. The mere fact that
Qonchita did not speak to me for a few days almost killed
me.
Because of her I had the courage to do what I did to
get us out of that place. Faro's attempt to rape her terrified her. I wish I could take those haunting images away. Every
time after such an ordeal she melted into my arms, looking
forlorn and lost. My heart ached for her and for what we
were going through.
The image of her feet, skin worn away to a bloody
pulp from walking, her slippers torn, is engraved in me.
Those first days were terrible, when we realized help was
not coming and we would have to walk. People fell down
from exhaustion because the captain refused to stop. The
lack of food and the constant rain stalled us over and over.
I still hear the screams as wild animals captured people
and dragged them into the bushes. I carried Qonchita for
days through that brush with Rosa-Lee on my back. Faro
never attempted to help them. Not that I would have let
him.
The man was more interested in the slave girls that
travelled with us. There were times that I had to bite my
tongue when I caught him in the act. The man was simply
arrogant in his dealings, but those women loved him.
Those days were hard on my lady. But she never
complained. She took everything with her head held high, a
true lady to the bone.
I swore to myself that I would keep her save, protect
her. I did not care what any one said as long as she was
safe. Those days when I carried her, I knew without any
doubt that I loved her but I never said a word, although I
wanted to. That kiss was the only one we ever dared to
share, so I kept my distance as much as I could.
It was hard to watch her, yet she had this strength
in her that made her to stand up and go on, no matter what.
Now, to have her in my arms every night is a
blessing. I can kiss her all I want. I make love to her and
she simply melts in my arms.
She is my joy, my delight. I will love her always.
3
January 15, 1624
Today was an exceptionally cold day and we spent
it indoors. I love days like this where we can sit around the
hearth and read, talk and enjoy each other's' company.
Rosa-Lee was on top of Cisco most of the time. She loves
her daddy so much. Her laughter fills the castle. I can
hardly wait for this little one to come. My protruding
tummy is a joy for Cisco. He simply cannot keep his hands
off me.
Today I think back to the many days and weeks we
walked through the grassy plains of Africa. I remember the
exhaustion, the heat, and the insects that bit us day and
night. Then in the afternoons the rains would drench us
completely so that the nights were miserable. We faced
hunger for days on end because Captain Breno refused to
let us rest and get the required food. I learned to eat
anything in my walk, from tree bark to grass and leaves.
Anything would do just to get the hunger pains under
control.
There were days that I did not know how we got at a
certain point. My body and soul were so tired for lack of
everything basic.
After two months we finally arrived in an empty
stad, a town. No one was there and as we searched the
empty huts in the hope of food, we were once again faced
with nothing. A lonely dog barked, seeking attention from
the Captain. He shot it.
People scrambled to get to it first. In disgust I
watched as they ate it just like that.
Someone found rotten maize. Again, people ate it
and got stomach cramps. Two people died afterwards.
The one thing that would always remain in my
thoughts was the face of the pregnant woman we found shot
dead by our captain and left to bleed to death. He was a
cruel man. He wanted to punish me