it over. He expected her to hand it to him; instead she sat down beside him. So close that their thighs were almost touching.
He liked it better when she was across the room.
âWhatâs this?â he asked.
She set the book in her lap and opened it to the first page. âMaxâs baby book. It has pictures and notes and every milestone heâs reached up until now. Iâve been working on it since before he was born.â
Clearly she had, as the first few pages consisted of photos of her in different stages of her pregnancy, and even a shot of the home pregnancy stick that said âpregnantâ in the indicator window. And her earlier self-description that she was âas big as a houseâ in her eighth month was obviously a gross exaggeration. Other than looking like she had swallowed a basketball, her body appeared largely unchanged.
âYou looked good,â he said.
âI was pretty sick the first trimester, but after that I felt great.â
The next page was sonogram photosâwith one that clearly showed the baby was a boyâand notes sheâd taken after her doctor visits. The pages that followed were all Max. And damn, maybe Nathan was partial, but he surewas a cute baby. But as Ana sat beside him slowly turning the pages, he caught himself looking at her instead. The familiar line of her jaw and the sensual curve of her lips. The soft wisps of hair that had escaped the clip and brushed her cheek. Eighteen months ago he wouldnât have thought twice about reaching up to tuck it back behind her ear. To caress her cheek, stroke the column of her neck. Press his lips to the delicate ridge of her collar boneâ¦
Damn. He would have thought that over time his desire for her would have faded, but the urge to put his hands on her was as strong as ever. And for her sake as much as his own, he couldnât.
âHeâs a cute kid,â he said, as she reached the end of the book and flipped it closed. âHe actually looks a lot like Jordan did at that age.â
She got up and carried the book back to the shelf, sliding it in place. A part of him hoped she would return to the couch and sit beside him, and the disappointment he felt when she didnât was a clear indication that he needed to get the hell out of there. He should be concentrating on his son, but all he could think about was her.
He swallowed the last of his wine and pulled himself to his feet. âItâs late,â he said, even though it was barely past nine. âI have an early morning. I should get going.â
If his leaving disappointed her, she didnât let on. She followed him as he walked to the door. âSo, weâll see you tomorrow around seven?â she asked.
âOr sooner if I can manage it.â He shrugged into his jacket and she opened the door. This would normally be the part where she slid her arms up around his neck and kissed him goodbye, and usually tried to talk him into staying the night. God knows he had been tempted, every single time, but that was always where he drew the line. Sleeping over insinuated a level of intimacy where he never daredtread. Otherwise women got the wrong idea. Especially women like Ana.
âIâm glad you came over tonight,â she said.
He stopped just shy of the threshold. âMe, too.â
âAnd I meant what I said before, about the choice you make. Even after this, if you decide you canât do this, I wonât hold it against you. Being a parent is tough. It takes a ton of sacrifice.â
âIt sounds almost as if youâre trying to dissuade me.â
âItâs also the most rewarding experience Iâve ever had. It changes you in a way you would never expect. Things I used to think were so important just donât seem that critical anymore. Itâs all about him now.â
He wasnât sure if he was ready to make a child the center of his life. He wouldnât even begin to
Larry Schweikart, Michael Allen