getting sorted and she seems happy that Connor is back in her life.
I’m busy washing the remaining dishes when Connor walks into the kitchen.
“Need any help?” He offers.
“Nope, I’m nearly done.” I pull out the plug and rinse my hands then dry them. I turn to him, “So how long you staying? Do you need a place to crash? You can stay here if you want?” I ramble on concerned.
He pats the top of my head and sit s on the kitchen granite counter top. He grins, “Calm down Harlz, I’m all good.” He chuckles, “I’ve already booked a room for the rest of the month and I’m going to look for places in the meantime. Anna says she’s going to hook me up at her studio too. She needs someone to run it, I’ve got all my tattoo equipment ready to go… can’t wait to get started.” He says happily.
“You look happier Connor.” I grin. It’s true, he seems so much more relaxed and at ease than I’ve ever seen him before.
“That’s because I am happy Harlz. I’m so fucking happy I could shit rainbows. I should’ve come looking for my family a long time ago. I was held back by my father’s leash for so long that I finally just broke. I had a degree for something I hated, I was working for someone I hated and it was all because I didn’t have the balls to leave my father alone. I know it’s fucked up and I only realized how fucked up it was when his new girlfriends started getting younger and younger. One of them snuck into my room and climbed into my bed, when I kicked her out and told my father about it he blamed me. That was it, I was done with him and all his tramps so I packed my shit, finally found my own place and quit my job, that was three years ago. I heard from a client that Caleb was now living here so I decided to stop by; I didn’t expect to find you or Willow though. Big fucking surprise that was!” He chuckles.
I laugh, “I’m just glad your back. Holly is so happy to see you Con, she must have missed you so much.”
He gives me a sheepish smile, “Missed my mom and brothers too. Willow’s met those two little shits right?” I smile and nod.
“Well I better get started on my sucking up. She can’t like them more than me. I’m going to make sure it’s known who her favourite uncle is!” He winks at me then scurries off the counter and out the kitchen.
That evening after everyone has left I lay in bed next to Caleb unable to fall asleep.
“ What’s wrong baby?” Caleb pulls me closer into his side. I’m thinking about what Anna told me and I know he doesn’t deserve it but I’m worrying about Jace, I can’t tell Caleb that though.
“What did you say to my father? You guys were real chatty.” I look up to him, resting my chin on his chest. He moves his fingers through my hair and a huge grin appears on his face as he looks down at me.
“Your dad is a fucking legend! I told him about you, how much I love you and how I thought about you the entire time we weren’t together. Told him about wishing I knew about Willow when you found out, then I told him about what I did to you and how I’ve regretted it ever since. Seems like your father and I have a few things in common.” He looks away as he mumbles these last words.
“ He told me about your mother and Anna and the shit that went down between the three of them. He loved every minute of watching you grow up and he can’t imagine what I went through knowing I missed those first years of Willow’s life.” He ends off in a rough voice then clears his throat. I can feel his pain even though he won’t actually say the words.
My regret for keeping Willow from him those four years is a painful reminder I live with every time I catch him looking at her baby photos or every time he asks me about what she was like as a baby.
I lean up and give him a hard kiss, I want him to forget about the past and only think about what’s happening right now.
He grabs hold of the ba ck of my head and tugs me against his