said.
He nodded. âThey say he never knew what hit him, probably. Iâll miss him. He said he wasnât planning to come back this way again, once he got back out west. Funny,when I was a kid the phrase âwent westâ meant died. Jim went west, all right. Too damned bad. He was a good guy. I cared about him.â
âYouâve still got your son. And your daughter. And your health.â
âI know. I have everything, really, and I still feel bad. Iâll be out of here before long.â He tapped his chest. âThe old clock skipped a few ticks, but itâs good for several more years. Lucky, though. Damned nitro pills didnât help. Iâm gonna get some fresh ones. Good thing Zee was there, or I might not be able to feel anything. Still, Iâm damned if I intend to lie down for the rest of my life just to avoid dying. I plan to be on the beach again as soon as they let me out of here.â
The nurse walked in, smiled at him, and waved me out.
Down the hall I found Billyâs room. Billy had bandages wrapped around one arm and more on his head. The hair that I could see was singed short. Heâd had a longish beach-boy kind of haircut, but it would take a while to grow another one. He was about twenty, a kid with his fatherâs features. Right now the features were covered with some sort of salve. His lips were split and he had singed eyelashes and brows.
âHow you doing?â I sat down.
âIâm okay. What are you doing here?â He had reason to be surprised. Weâd never been close. When Iâd first met him heâd been strung out and snide, one of those users who think that their habit makes them superior to straight folk. I hadnât seen much of him since heâd taken the cure.
âI came to see your old man. He told me you were here. I want to ask you something I couldnât ask him.â
âSure. What? If itâs about the accident, Iâm afraid I canât tell you much. I donât know what happened.â
âTell me about that morning, before the explosion happened. Was there anything odd about the boat when you got aboard?â
âWhat do you mean?â He winced when he frowned.
âYour sister thinks somebody fixed it so the explosion would happen.â
He paled beneath his burn, and his eyes widened like a deerâs before a gun. âWhat? What do you mean? What are you . . .â His voice rose and thinned.
âYour sister thinks that somebody tried to blow you up and that it was to keep you from talking about your old drug buddies. She asked me to check it out.â
âSheâs crazy. Sheâs just crazy with worry. And shook up because of poor Jim.â He paused. âSheâs wrong. Iâve been away from the drug scene for over a year. Since last summer. I donât see that crowd anymore.â
âSomebody saw you last week in front of the Fireside. They say you and your friend Danny Sylvia got in an argument and that he said heâd get you.â
âWho told you that?â He leaned up off the pillows, then eased back. âOf course. Susie told you. She got there about the time Danny said that. But believe me, it didnât mean anything. Thatâs just Dannyâs way. Besides, Dannyâs not on dope anymore, either. Heâs straight, like me. Anyway, he left for California to go to summer school, so it couldnât have been him.â
âWhat was the argument about, then?â
âA girl. It was about a girl we both know. You know what I mean?â He gave a small grin, then stopped it. It hurt for him to grin just like it hurt for him to frown.
âWas there anything odd or unusual about the boat that morning. Any sign of tampering, maybe?â
He thought. âNo, nothing at all. The boat was lockedup, the tanks were full, everything was fine. Jim and I started her up and took her right out. No
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