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think it should be obvious, I’m getting dressed.” When I’m hurt, I get defensive.  It’s always been a way to hide my true feelings.
    “And why are you doing that?” Instead of confusion in his voice, now I heard a hint of laughter.  The worst thing you can do with me, is make me think you’re laughing at me.  I have huge issues with that because growing up I was poor and being made fun of for what I didn’t have.
    Instead of answering him, I slid on my bra and t-shirt, before looking around for my underwear.  Before I could find them, he had and dangled them from his fingers. “I don’t think I asked you to leave.”  His attitude was playful, but I was pretty much done with this situation. 
    “Wasn’t aware I needed your permission.”  I reached for my panties and he pulled them out of my grasp.  He really knew nothing about me, if he had, he would have known that when I felt hurt or embarrassed the best thing to do was just let me be. 
    “Why don’t you stop trying to run, and sit down so we can talk?” I felt like an idiot as he continued to hold my underwear out of reach, and I truly wanted to punch him.
    I so wasn’t in the mood to play games. My feelings were hurt, I’d just lost my virginity to a man I didn’t know, and I just wanted to go somewhere and have a good cry.  Since I wasn’t the type to give in to tears, I was starting to get angry on top of that.  Obviously it was a night of many firsts because my eyes flooded and I couldn’t stop the waterworks when they started.
    “Hey, come on, Caitlin, I’m sorry.”  He reached out to grab me and I backed away.  He stalked forward and caught me in his arms and I completely freaked.  Instead of acting like a normal person I started fighting and the only reason I didn’t hurt him is because he was holding me too tightly.
    “I’ll take you home if that’s what you really want, but not until you calm down.  Talk to me.” Maybe it was the concern now in his voice, or the fact that I was completely embarrassed by my actions, but I stopped trying to hurt him.
    When I stilled completely in his arms, he relaxed his hold.  “I’m going to let you go, but I want you to promise that we’re going to talk.”   I nodded my head, wishing I could go back in time and not be such an idiot. 

 
    chapter Four
    Choosing
    He picked up my underwear and handed them to me.  His wary look might have been comical if the situation was different.  I took the flimsy piece of silk, and slid them back on, instantly feeling a little more control.  My gaze landed on my shorts and without paying any attention to him, I walked over, grabbed them up and put those on too.  I needed that time to get my emotions back under control.
    When I turned back to face him, he’d slid his boxers back on, and even with the strangeness of this night, I couldn’t help but wish he’d stayed naked.  The man was really gorgeous to behold.  Awkward was the only way I could describe the atmosphere in the room.  I’d just fucked this guy, and now I had no idea what to say to him.
    “Let’s walk down to the kitchen before I forget why we need to talk.” He grinned and the look he gave was so seductive, I wasn’t sure I didn’t want the same thing.  It was definitely much easier to be in his bed than thinking about a conversation.  I nodded.
    “Shame.” His eyes roamed over me before he shook his head, and I didn’t understand what he was talking about.  When he walked out of the room, I followed him obediently.  I’d definitely have to think about later why I was willing to do whatever he asked.
    I took in the glamourous décor as we made our way back down the grandeur of the staircase, wondering what it must feel like to live in a place like this.  While I inspected his home, I also felt the strange ache between my legs that reminded me of what I’d done.  I knew that I deserved a swift kick in the ass for letting myself go through with