and yet she couldnât help feeling sorry for TJ. Sheâd seen the pain in his eyes when he admitted heâd been a teacher, and that had touched a chord deep inside her.
âThose who can, do.â Her fatherâs words reverberated through her brain, reminding Gillian of the day sheâd announced that she wanted to be a music teacher. Dad had scowled, his expression forbidding as he continued. âThose who canât, teach. Only losers teach, and you are not a loser, Gillian. Youâre a Hodge. Youâre meant for better things than teaching.â
Had TJ heard similar disparaging remarks? Gillian didnât know. What she did know was that something was wrong, something TJ did not want to discuss, something tied to teaching. There had been a note of finality when heâd said âused to teach,â a hint of melancholy that made her imagine herself pronouncing similar words.
âI used to be a concert pianist.â Though sheâd never actually said that, she knew that one day she would have to, and it would undoubtedly be painful. TJ was already at that point, and the anguish sheâd seen before he lowered his eyes made her wish there were some way to ease it.
âIâm not sure how much help I can be,â she told him, trying to keep her voice light, âbut Iâve always heard thereâs safety in numbers.â
He shrugged. âSure, why not?â Though he didnât sound thrilled, what could she expect? The man was having a bad day. Not only had he crashed his bike, but he was now sporting the worst haircut Gillian had ever seen. She had to admit that the clean-shaven look was an improvement over the scruffy beard, but that naturally curly hair of his needed more than a rough hacking.
When her nephewâs hair had shown a tendency to wave, her brother George and sister-in-law Lisa had searched for the right stylist to tame it. Of course, George and Lisa were more concerned about appearances than TJ seemed to be. Gillian suspected the man had never worn, much less owned, a tuxedo. His clothing was clean and serviceable but bore none of the designer labels that were so important to her brother.
âThe image you project is important,â George used to say, parroting their father. If TJ had heard the adage, he either disagreed or had a very different image in mind. Rough rather than refined. To Gillianâs surprise, she found rough appealing.
As the conversation switched to Texas politics, she said little, content to watch the way TJ challenged the others. Though never confrontational, he asked probing questions that elicited surprising responses. She doubted even George, a proud graduate of Harvard Law School, could have done a better job of changing the other guestsâ opinions.
âYou win.â One of the men raised his hands in surrender.
âItâs not a matter of win or lose,â TJ said. âItâs a matter of thinking. I just wanted you to consider the other side. The truth is, I agree with your position.â
After a second of shocked silence, everyone laughed. âGood job, TJ.â The man lowered his arms and grinned, obviously pleased by the apparent U-turn.
Good job indeed. Who would have guessed that the rough-around-the-edges man was a skilled orator?
5
T he meal ended with the best chocolate pound cake Gillian had ever eaten, leaving her feeling as if she wouldnât need to eat again for a week. She rose and told TJ sheâd meet him in front of the office in ten minutes. To her surprise, though TJ had taken seconds of almost everything, he emerged holding a large bag of groceries.
âMore food?â She groaned at the thought.
âTake a look.â TJ tilted the bag so she could see the contents. âCarmen had everything I needed in her pantry.â Gillian smiled. The food wasnât for them. It was for the bored teenagers. Though she would not have thought of providing food,