prompted.
I shrugged. âAnd so heâs destined to be my husband. Iâm just not sure which husband. I donât want him to be my first, because obviously that oneâs not going to lastââ
âObviously.â
âAnd I want my last husband to be much younger than I am so he can take care of me when Iâm dying. Obviously.â
âObviously.â
âMaybe number three?â
âWould that put him in the middle? Or still toward the beginning?â
âIâm hurt,â I said. âHow many husbands do youthink Iâm planning to have? Iâm not that kind of girl.â
âObviously,â he said.
I nudged his elbow with mine. âCome on. Letâs go down to the water.â
When we reached the sand, I kicked off my flip-flops and said, âYouâd better take your loafers off, too, unless you like gritty shoes.â
He removed his shoes and socks, then cuffed his pants. âHow stupid do I look?â he asked as he straightened up.
âYou donât want to know.â
ââDonât worry, George, you look fine. Not stupid at all . ââ
âMy mama didnât raise no liars.â
âJust . . . come on.â We left our shoes and he led the way down to the edge of the water. We stood there in the semidarkness, hearing the waves better than we could see them. The water looked black at this hour. Black with white frills that caught the moonlight. The few couples I could see were spread out along the beach, as far from one another as they could be, greedy for privacy.
âWhy is the ocean so wonderful?â I asked after weâd gazed in contented silence for a while.
âI donât know,â George said. âPeople canât survive without water, so maybe weâre biologically programmed to want to be near it.â
âYou just managed to suck all the poetry right out of this.â
âSorry.â
âItâs okay. Doesnât this make you want to do something?â
âWhat do you mean?â
âI donât know.â I circled my hands in the air, frustrated by my inability to put the feeling into words. âThereâs something about how beautiful it isâand how the waves lookâand the sound, too . . . and itâs like we should go out and build castles or fight evil or just run around in circles screaming. Donât you feel that?â
âYeah,â he said. âItâs so big and weâre so small. It makes you want to be bigger. To matter.â
âRight.â I turned and we started walking along the shore. âThe sandâs freezing. My feet are getting numb.â
âYou want to go back inside?â
âSoon. Not yet.â I glanced sideways at him. âSo what could we do that would matter? Build hospitals? Slay evil dictators? Write the great American novel?â
âWe could write the great American novel about an evil dictator while sitting in a hospital,â he said. âBut what weâll really do is walk away and forget that feeling within about five minutes and end up like the rest of the world, working any job we can get and leading lives of quiet desperation.â
âYouâre a cynic.â
âNoâa realist.â
I glanced up at the resort and saw a couple strolling toward the ocean, holding hands. âIsnât that Mom and Luke?â
âI think so,â George said, and we headed toward them. There were a few other couples trailing them, acting all casual and indifferent but clearly sneaking glimpses at the famous TV star. At least they were all keeping a respectful distance.
âWhat are you two doing down here?â Mom asked as we came together.
âI had to get out of that room,â I said. âJacob threw a fitâhe was screaming and throwing his food. I ran into George in the lobby and we thought weâd see what the beach was