home, for throwing away my privileged upbringing. Sheâd tell me Iâd be rich if Iâd just stayed with her and whatever sugar daddy she was with at the time. I got so sick of telling her I wanted to make it on my own. She never understood why I would want to work for something. Sheâs never worked for anything in her life.
âSo in the end I left everything I knew behind. I moved. I didnât tell friends or family members, I didnât even tell my girlfriends of the time. I just applied for the job, did all the paperwork in secret, then jumped the plane and came here. I never looked back. Well, I did. I hit the internet, old friends found me through that, and Mom found out where I was.
âEmails are so much easier to ignore than phone calls though.
âIâve enjoyed six blissful years without hearing a word from my mother. Sheâs been back in my life for just over six hours and I already feel like a pathetic waste of space. Again.â
âYouâre not, though. Itâs your mumâs loss, not yours.â
âI know, but thereâs something deep inside that, well, just wants her to be proud of me. Just for once, you know? Itâs my driving force. I donât quite know what would happen or who I would be without it.â
I snuggle closer to him and gently stroke his shoulder. I donât know what to say. I know my mum can be a pain in the bum but I can count on her to be there for me whenever I need her. I cannot imagine not having that security in my life. I donât want to even contemplate it.
âI know it doesnât really mean anything but I am sorry, Joe, I really am.â
âThank you, Leanna, really. You and Lucy give me so much support and love, Iâm so damn lucky to have you. â
The kiss we share is gentle and poignant. We whisper I love yous and I drift off happily to sleep.
Chapter Four
âI think Iâm going to throttle her before tomorrow,â I gasp at Joe as I slam the bedroom door behind me.
âWhat now?â
âShe just questioned my choice of sun block for Lucy, said it might be better for her to get a bit of colour on her pasty white British skin. Is she for real?â
âIâm afraid she is.â Joe sighs and attempts to knot a dark blue tie. I walk over and help him. âSheâs been saying such crazy things since I was a kid.â
âWedding tomorrow.â I smile. âI just keep saying it over and over in my head like a mantra.â
âIâm sorry sheâs here, Leanna. My mother would stress out a bloody saint.â
âHa,â I finish fastening his tie and run my hands down his shoulders. âDonât worry about it. Sheâs already said I wonât be seeing her again once she gets back to America because, what was it? Oh yes, she hates Britain and Iâm too poor and unstylish to ever make it out to Las Vegas.â
âSheâll be gone soon,â he says, kissing me gently, âthen we can relax.â
I nod and smile. âAnyway, forget her. How are you doing? Ready for the big interview?â
âIn your words, Iâm ready as Iâll ever be. Damn, I hope I remember how to do all this. Itâs a long time since Iâve had to charm someone who wasnât you or a gorgeous year-old baby.â
âYouâll be fine, love.â I wipe some imaginary dirt from his shoulders. âI am so confident in you and your charm. Youâll blow him away.â
âWell, I just keep thinking he did invite me especially to apply for the job, so thatâs got to be encouraging.â
âExactly. Damn, you look so hot in this suit. Iâm not going to be able to keep my hands off you tomorrow.â
âI canât wait to see you in your wedding dress and then to get you out of it.â
He smirks and catches me round the waist.
âPerv.â I laugh.
âThatâs why youâre marrying
A. A. Fair (Erle Stanley Gardner)