like a stick in the mud . She watched as the wood in the fire shifted, pushing hundreds of glowing embers up into the air. Slowly they floated up above the flames and then disappeared into the night. She needed to let go just like those embers, no longer holding on to the past; holding on to what they once were. As the rest of the group made their way to the other end of the field, Ani walked around and hopped into the driver’s seat of her truck.
“Whoa there. Where do you think you’re going?” Cash came up toward her door and grabbed it before she could close it.
“Get in,” Ani smiled.
“How about you scoot over and let me drive,” Cash looked up at her with a slight smile, “you’ve been hitting the jar pretty hard tonight.”
“Ok.” She didn’t protest as she scooted across the middle console and into the passenger seat.
As Cash climbed into the truck, she rolled her window down and pushed the number five CD button. Quietly, Willie Nelson and Ray Charles came crooning through the speakers singing “Seven Spanish Angels”. She looked over at Cash to find him staring at her with wild eyes. This was their song. The only song they’d ever made love to. The only song she knew every single word to. The only song that could still bring her to tears if she listened to it without him.
“Ani…” he started, but she brought her hand up to his mouth stopping him.
“Don’t, Cash. Not tonight,” she pleaded, pausing for a moment before dropping her hand.
That moment, she wanted him. Badly. She wanted him to consume her, to feel his hands travel along her skin as she lay underneath him. Screw indecision, she was ready for whatever was going to happen tonight. Before thinking, she leaned over and their lips met. She lingered briefly until he began to move. His hand traveled to her hair and tugged lightly on the loose strands at the back of her neck. Her lips parted as his tongue slid in, tangling with her own. She took a deep breath through her nose, trying to calm her heart from pounding straight out of her chest. She could feel Cash’s hands traveling down to her shorts. Their lips broke long enough for her to attempt to pull her shirt over her head.
“Wait,” Cash’s voice was low and protective.
“Cash?” Ani paused and sat back down in the passenger seat.
“Not here.”
Ok fair enough.
He put the truck in drive and took off around the bonfire toward the trail they had come up. She could hear the faint shouts directed at their truck as they sped off into the cover of the forest. She leaned back in the seat as the warm Tennessee air came in through her window, blowing her hair in every direction and kissing lightly against her damp skin. She could hear the faint sound of water falling from the mountainside as he pulled up into a dark back corner of the property.
She looked over at Cash, her eyes on fire with hunger for him. This was their spot. The same place he’d made love to her for the first time on her eighteenth birthday. She was so naïve back then. She thought that he’d be her first and her last. But times had changed and she hoped, down to her core, that if she got it tonight out of her system that she would be over this silly obsession with him for good. She knew there was too much hurt and disappointment to go back down that road for good. Both of their hearts had been battered, like a ship tossed around at sea while caught in the midst of a treacherous squall. But pain and hurt was the last thing that she wanted to worry about tonight. Tonight she was going to let fate decide, because as she’d learned at this point, that there was no use trying to make plans around that bitch. Fate had a mind of her own.
“Ani,” his voice pulled her from her thoughts as she looked over at him. His bright green eyes were shining like gemstones in the moonlight that cascaded through the windshield.
“Cash, I don’t want to talk about this right now,” she said, climbing into his lap
Joni Rodgers, Kristin Chenoweth