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reins and… well, maybe control our relationship more.   I love that you always want to make me happy, but there are times, like last Friday, that I just wanted you to make the decision for me.” 
    It takes her a moment to summon the courage to continue.  “In fact it’s not just about where we go to eat.  It’s about other things too.  I love that you just took charge tonight and made plans for us for dinner and dancing. I want to drink enough to get tipsy and then do some dirty dancing with you at the club and then when we get home tonight, I’d really love it if you would just take charge.  You know what I mean?”
    Markus is back to staring at the road and an awkward silence invades the small car before he finally quietly asks a simple question. “Bri, are you happy being married to me?”
    His question is so surprising she blurts out her answer more aggressively than she intended.  “Where the hell did that question come from?   I tell you I want you to be more authoritative and you turn it into thinking I’m not happy with our marriage?”  Before Markus can speak again she continues on with much more passion in her voice.  “I love you Markus.  I know I’m the luckiest woman on the face of the earth so don’t you ever think I’m not happy.  All I’m trying to say is that I’ve come to see you as two different people.  You’re this high-powered defense attorney who kicks ass and takes names all day, and then you come home and are this gentle teddy bear with me.  Most of the time I truly love how gentle and considerate you are, but I guess … well, there are just some times when I wish you’d come home as the kick ass attorney and let me see a bit more of that side of you too.  After all, it’s the first side of you that I fell in love with.”
    “So what are you saying, Brianna?  I’m too nice and I need to treat you like shit?  Because honestly, if you could see me at work, you wouldn’t want me to bring that home. I can be a ruthless bastard. Just ask Georgie.” 
    His voice is shaking with anger, and the mention of Georgie immediately throws a damper on the whole evening for Bri. 
    “I can’t believe you’re bringing up your ex-wife,” she says quietly.
    “I have to Brianna.  I had to learn my lesson the hard way. With Georgie, I brought my work home with me every day.  I was the same controlling person at home and at the office and trust me, it doesn’t make for a loving relationship.  I swore when I met you that I would never let that happen again.  I couldn’t risk losing you by being a controlling bastard like I am in the courtroom. I’ve learned to separate the parts of my life in a way that helps me know I’ll never hurt you.”  
    After a few minutes of silence, Brianna decides she has to keep pushing.  “What really happened with Georgie, Markus?  You’ve never really told me why you got divorced.”
    He takes a minute before finally answering, his mouth in a grim line and his eyes locked on the road ahead. “Let’s just say that losing her was the best thing that ever happened to me, not only because it gave me a chance to find you, but also because it taught me the price of being a totally arrogant asshole.  I’d become so successful so fast that I let it all go to my head.  I thought I was invincible, and I forced my will on anyone in my path, including Georgie.  You would never have put up with me for one day like I was back then, Bri.  Trust me. You want me to leave that Markus at the office.”
    It feels like a small piece of the bigger puzzle that is Markus has just fallen into place for Brianna. When spending time with Markus’ family, they often hint at the 180-degree change in him since he met her, but they always refused to go into details.  She’d always assumed they were just surprised he could be so in love.  Now she understands it’s because marriage to her has changed him. For the first time, she begins to understand that