typical back-tracking guy and pretend nothing had happened between us. I wanted to see how this was going to play out and quickly. If the Prof was going to play those kind of man games I wanted to rule him out soon. But if he was going to help me, I would be able to advance my escape plan, and enjoy some intensely pleasant moments along the way. But I had to be careful for Ridgley’s benefit, not just mine. The Prof had taken a huge risk in speaking to me alone like that. I guessed there had to be rules in place for college teachers – boundaries to stop them getting intimate with students and staff. Of course there were. My email had to be careful not to offer evidence to prying eyes who would seek to cause the Prof harm. Here’s what I wrote:
Dear Professor
Thank you for your offer to help me with my current situation.
I would be grateful if we could meet up to discuss how the college can help me.
I am available any weekday afternoon this week.
Thanks,
Ashley
That was good enough. It was as plain as vanilla, nobody could read anything juicy into that. I sat back, and pressed send, all satisfied with myself, when I was suddenly aware of Brandon breezing into the front room behind me. I shifted the laptop and minimized the screen. I looked up and saw him watching me. His mouth was a pout. He looked good, but he also looked like a petulant teenager. I couldn’t stand him, no matter how damn hot he was.
“Have a physical weekend?” I asked. “You look all tired out.”
“What’s that supposed to mean?” He said.
“Oh, nothing.”
“Yeah, right. What I do when I go out is none of your business, Ashley. You made that plain already.”
“You know Brandon, you’re dead right. It is none of my business.”
“You’re acting funny. Ever since Luke and I got back last night. Don’t think I haven’t noticed, and don’t think I’m stupid, Ashley. I’ve got my eye on you.”
“I don’t care if you think you’ve noticed anything, Brandon. Because my life is none of your business.”
“Oh yes it is. The worse you treat me the more it becomes my business. Do you understand?”
“No. No, I don’t.”
“You will. Don’t you dare try anything, Ashley, or things will get worse for you.”
I closed my laptop down and folded my hands over it. When Brandon was all done staring at me, he left the room and I sighed in relief. He had almost seen my email, I know it. I had to be more careful, yes, and at the same time I had to do everything that I had planned. And I would do it, no matter what consequences Brandon had in mind.
Seven
That night I checked my emails with bated breath, nervous of being caught, and eager to see that Ridgley was still interested in me… if that’s what this was. Maybe I had it all wrong and he just wanted to help me. But his sparkling eyes, and the softness of his embrace… surely there was something there… Yes. I wanted to punch the air, and celebrate, but I kept my high feeling as quiet as I could. I clicked his email open.
Ashley,
I was greatly distressed by your situation. I believe you have enormous potential to do well in this field. I am intent on finding a way for you to reach that potential, and I know some of my colleagues feel the same way. I have not discussed your difficulties with staff as yet, as I feel it is only right I discuss the matter with you first. Because I believe this is an urgent matter, I would be grateful if you would come to me in room E12c at five fifteen tomorrow afternoon. I hope this is a good time for you.
I look forward to seeing you then.
Tom Ridgley
Nothing in his email could have given anyone any reason to believe there was any sexual attraction between us. But because of our earlier chat and embrace, I felt he had charged certain words with extra meaning. He was distressed by my situation … he was intent on finding a way… and seeing me was an urgent matter … Those things felt