talking for an eighth grader, even if the topic was the Civil War and I love the Civil War. Henry and I watched the whole Ken Burns documentary on it more than once over the summer. But, okay, shut the heck up, I was realizing, too late. Was I acting like Hermione in the first Harry Potter book, before she got cool and popular? Because that would be bad. You donât want to be Book One Hermione. Books Five to Seven, yes. Not Book One.
I swallowed hard and didnât say anything back to Natasha. Instead I sucked it up and dealt.
âDonât let her bother you,â Brooke whispered to me right then. âSheâs mad because Clay keeps staring at you.â
âOh, my goodness,â I whispered back, both because, wow, really? Clay Everett was staring at me? Why? But also, yikes, she startled me, appearing suddenly beside me and whispering at me while being Brooke. I still wasnât fully used to being somebody Brooke would whisper to.
âNot that that excuses what a hair ball sheâs being, but . . .â
âNo, itâs fine,â I said.
âNatasha is justâyou know.â
I didnât know. I mean I did, of course, but I wasnât sure I should be gossiping about her with Brooke. âShould I apologize, you think? Or . . .â
âFor what?â
âFor, you know. Clay?â
âOh, yeah, definitely,â Brooke said. â
Sorry your ex keeps staring at me.
That would be good.â
Itâs not always easy for me to tell whether Brooke is just joking around. Iâm still not completely fluent in the rhythm. But I tried teasing back. âHow about if instead I said,
Sorry youâre being such a hair ball
?â
Brooke laughed. âPerfect,â she said.
HAZEL
TRULY SAT WITH
those people
again at lunch yesterday. Itâs becoming a bad habit. Something had to be done, and I was the girl to do it.
So first thing this morning, I waited at the cluster of lockers right near the center pole in the eighth-grade hall. Thatâs where all
those people
have their lockers, bunched together. They smiled quizzically at me. I smiled back. Undeterred. I sat down in front of Brookeâs locker cross-legged and waited.
When she finally showed up, I said, âHi, howâs it going, Brooke?â
âGreat,â she said. âYou?â But she was looking at boy-wonder Clay, not at me. Maybe she was hoping heâd remember my name and mouth it to her.
âGreat, thanks Brooke,â I said, and then I asked her if she wanted to come over sometime.
All
those people
stopped breathing. It was a thing of beauty.
âOh, uh, thanks,â Brooke said. âThat sounds greatâbut Iâm really busy.â
Every day from now on forever?
I didnât ask.
I stood up and smiled again. As if I didnât get it, that I could not ask Brooke to come over. In what possible world could a middle-school nobody with a hunched-over, but still I do believe grand manner, just haul off and ask the number one most popular girl in the entire school to come over sometime?
Not the one we all live in.
Here in this world I cannot really even say hello to her. But to ask, Hey Brooke, howâs it going. Do you want to come over sometime? Hahahaha! I might as plausibly have walked sideways across the lockers and spoken in Elvish.
But I did it. I asked her to come over sometime. Yup. Forced her to look all awkward. Brooke Armstrong, fidgeting. I did that.
âThatâs okay, Brooke,â I told her, like I was used to just calling her by name, aloud, any old time. Three times so far.
Their mouths were hanging open,
those people,
their eyes darting between Brooke and me. Seeing me. If theyâd noticed me at all, before, I probably only registered in their minds as that mild-mannered mildly depressed zero with the green hair. But now I was on their radar as that superweird girl who asked Brooke to come over to her